Why did you cause me sleepless nights?
When it was you who always made me feel alright,
Why did you want me to be your wife?
Knowing I could never make it in your life,

Why did you give up on me?
Causing pain deep my heart as the depth of the sea,
Why did you make me feel heaven?
Although you knew you couldn’t make this happen,

Why couldn’t you hug me and say one last goodbye?
If once that feeling was just a lie,
Why did it go from stranger to a friend?
Then to soulmates and to an end.

A mistake could change it all,
Until there comes a day to be solved,
The freedom and peace dies day by day,
While the happiness and peace is taken away,

Every single action you be criticized,
Your behavior is considered uncivilized,
Trauma is the only thing I could feel,
Realizing the wars in future I’ve to deal,

Unable to express the thoughts in words, so you tear,
Every new day  becomes a new fear,
Body shivering freezes every blood cell,
What worse can you experience in this hell?

The pain in the chest won’t let you rest,
Consoling yourself it all to be a test,
How is a feeling considered a mistake,
And till when is my smile meant to be fake?

Feeling so lost, feeling so weak,
Feeling so numb, I cannot even speak,
I don't understand what's happening around,
Questions in me, heaped up into a mound,

Something feels heavy down my heart,
Every heartbeat is like a ***** with the dart,
Just myself and few walls there for each other,
Feeling the serenity where no one could bother,

Breathing so hard to ease the pain,
Not letting myself from going insane,
Sitting on the prayer mat with soulful eyes,
Facing the tough battles between the earth and skies,

A deep dug ground is the final step,
Even thousands of feet, doesn't matter in depth,
All I need is to bury myself in darkness,
That would ease and numb my mental sickness.

Every second my heart was beating for that soul,                                                      
A life together with him is my only life goal,
Getting confidence after every text and phone call,
Still questioning myself ,how did I even fall?

We only knew that we were in love,
Didn’t realize there’s something way higher above,
But we were too young to reach that destination,
Hence happiness for both was just an imagination,

Then suddenly distance made us stay apart,
This was an escape point from the very start,
Our hearts yearned for each other in different ways,
It found the same comfort after several days,

Our future had always been a confusion
Still holding both our hearts finding a solution,
Yet we are two souls from two different world,
Leaving our fate in the hands of our lord to behold.