There was this boy
He appeared
In my dreams
When I needed
Rescuing

Black hair
Black shirt
Jeans
Can't remember how he looks like

He was the only
One
In a world
Of delusion
Distortion
Nonsense
Who seemed
Real
Who was
Sane
Who cared
Or so I think

Miraculously
Getting rid
Of all the dangers
Saving me
From an
Unpleasant
Fate

I still remember
The last thing
He told me
In the last dream
It was long long ago...
Caught in a web
Like those pyramids
You climb
With danger
Getting imminently
Closer
Climbing through
Steadily
I was frozen
My fear of heights
Made my movements
Sluggish
And slow

He turned to me
And said
"I'll go draw him
Off
Go
We'll meet
There"
Then he vanished

Ever since then
He had never
Come back
I wonder what's happening
In that chaotic world
Sometimes
I even wonder
How he is

Even though
He isn't
In this world
He isn't
Flesh and blood
But he makes me feel
Safe and
Secure
Grounded
In a world
Of chaos

Oh where are you...

It's surprising
How fast
An idea
A spark
Can go out
And how fast
One can
Change
Mindset
Or
Personas

I cannot
Deny
Any further

I am
Getting
Tired

I am no longer
What I was
Before

But still
I cannot
Stop

No matter
What
Till the end

Spread the love
Spread the care
To here
And there
And everywhere

Spread it thick
Spread it far
Spread it generously
Cover every inch
Everybody

Spread it generously
Spread it well
Spread it till
There’s nothing
Left

Of
The coldness
The ice
The hardness
The tenacity
The defence

And
Now I wonder
Where have they all
Gone?

Melted
Crumbled
Weakened
*Feels wrong somehow..

I'm scared
of making
Eye contact
Because
I feel
Intimidated
By what I might
See

Sadness
Tiredness
Expectation
Hope
Malice
Anger
Terror­
Mockery
Annoyance
Hate
Scorn

They say that
Eyes
Are a window
Into your soul

I guess
That's why
I've learnt
To guard them
Well