Beneath your seas of green
Relieve my jealousy
From all the realms to which you flee
Someday reside in me
May the wings with which you fly
Soften to a lullaby
As I am held within your pleasured sigh
Nevermore then say good-bye
Yet sad farewells you failed to send
A wispy ghost instead your end
Destined I to play pretend
What is broke can no more bend.

When delirium overcomes
When last moments descend
While memory replays visions
Of you, lost lover, missing friend
Chanting as my mind departs
Into the silence I’ll proclaim
Tender, soft, repeatedly
Only your beloved name

Perhaps you’ll hear despite the distance
Perhaps my words will make it so
Perhaps you’ll pause this firm resistance
Finally treasure, finally Know:
Always I have loved you
Never ceased my heart to seek
Delicacies of your presence
You alone e’er leave me weak

Although the future renders no fulfillment
Though the past is long deceased
Enduring years of your concealment
Wondering if your care has ceased
Despite the past, future, present
Yet my wish will e’er remain:
That you know my deepest sentiment
And that you might feel the same.

Darling, you think I couldn’t handle it?
“Handle it”?! Let’s see!

You would be a mighty redwood falling
Crashing hard & deep into my need
Petrified wood thrumming,
challenging my greed
You would hammer my desire
Until you turned to dust
Then you’d light my moans afire
to be swallowed deep into my lungs.

Babe, the truer question should be
could you walk the world the same
After riding through MY sweet seas
Once your lips had spoke my name?
Darling, YOU would be too much for ME?!
My challenge: test your wild claim
Come & feed my insatiability
I’d rock YOUR world the same

In my waking dream I kissed you
into holding me through my tomorrows

Know, I’ve always desired your presence
Beside me through all joys & sorrows.

Broken I was & e’er somewhat will be
Since you (or I) wandered away.
It’s been so long now I don’t anymore see
Why desire was crushed or did fade
& I don’t really know the “who”…
Those decisions—from me or from you?
Whatever our history I DO know
Desire forever holds true
& still in my dreams if I kiss
It’s only & ever all you

Though hidden my name
You conjure the same
Half stories to blame
Heart broke by your aim
In a silent cruel game

Love,
You drive me insane!
Remain…

Hear how whispers the rain
Words bearing strange pain
You’ve died yet again?

No, Love, Remain!

As I burst into flame
To ashes my name
Consumed be your shame.
Love’s power, I claim

Love’s power, Remain

Your spell cast on me
Yet my quiet plea
return & remain Eventually

before I even knew
even then it was still

Only
Ever
Always
You

I think we were meant to be
because
no matter what life brings
I always return to missing you
Only ever always
You are my
Inevitable

16 maybe 17
years…I have lost count
Long enough to be Family
She’ll only eat from my hand
only just enough to lap
but not enough to veil my scent
I, like the boy, miss her playful energy
& I worry how the boy
will deal with this decline
Nothing lives forever…
though
LOVE IS FOREVER

I worry
begging her to eat from my hand

I worry
Knowing just how painfully Love Hurts

I worry
the boy will feel the pain of Loss

Caretaker of the frail
I beg the aged pet,
Survive