When your charcoal orbs fall upon me, I couldn’t think of anything else besides the red carnation.

Words left unsaid. Hasten pulse left unscarred.

“Oh how I wish you knew sooner, my love”

Persephone’s voice hung high while her fingers traced his name. Inscribed into her wrist.

Outside her chamber, the universe listens closely to the words lurking beyond the sky.

Her prayers.

I wish there was a shortcut to make things easier.

I wish there was a hidden place to locked this false affection.

I wish there was a graveyard to bury all these thoughts of you.

And I wish there was an empty castle to conceal others’ remarks.

“Why are you still fighting for him?”

She smiled, a void one.

“I’m running out of time”

They love you in exclamation mark

but I

put your name in far corners of my mind, brush every of your syllable in cursive, in tangled words lost for time to keep. I love you in every ‘what if’s and ‘i hope’s, wondering how many of them would end up in your wake. You or the idea of you, i could not pinpoint where my love starts and ends, but i will continue to do so until i can’t anymore. Am i selfish? Most definitely. But i will be selfish to myself if it means i could freely loving you. I know you don’t feel the same. Its such shallow thing to love me back, when i do nothing to make you feel my love. I can only set my love on fire and watch my heart burn for you. When my ashes cold, i can only hope that you won’t find me. Because it means i worn out, so leave me, leave us. Even if all i ever wanted was you. For now, however, let me love you in gentle taps and in silence. Let me love you in letters and unsaid words, let me love you in songs and poems, let me love you in corners and one step behind. Let me love you like you love me back. I promise i won’t take any of your time. You could still walk away from me and i’ll paint your shadow the same. I will continue to love and yearn for you so deep it cuts through and seeps into my memories pavement like gold. When the time comes when i can properly say goodbye for you, i will look back at how far my steps have taken me, and i will properly tell you everything about what i feel, truly. I will not lie because you deserve to know, even if it doesn’t make any difference.

When we’re not in each other’s piece of mind anymore, I hope you’d still remember to miss me. Because i certainly will.