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and then i

I'm sick of going to bed at 2 am,
driven not by sleeplessness
but hunger
I listen to the same music
all the time
but I just can't
                     *******
                              stop

I've been living in
my sad skull
for too long
I need a sledgehammer;
please help me see
more than my thoughts again

I speak to you
because I think you're sweet
but after you go
I'm left with even
more  sour thoughts
than before

I'm sick of going to bed at 2 am
when I put myself down
to silence my mind

As I run my fingers through the pieces of my life,
my heart will split and never be so again.
I said I was fine
and you believed.
I'll let my tears fall away
and though you'll never see,
I'll be here for you.
Because I'm still in love with you.

why is it
that when lovers are separated across countries or states,
their world is lonely?
we've had weekends apart,
many times.
so why is it that
Just because you're going to a different state,
i feel lonely
and miss you?
what is is about those extra miles
That make us hurt?
what sense does it make?
what's the difference between
Three days apart
and
three days apart
and someplace else?
why do those ****** extra miles
leave a tugging in my chest?
Maybe
this tugging
is my heart
trying to reach yours
because they've never felt this distance.
our heartstrings are intertwined
and being pulled by
those ****** extra miles.

i'm scared of love.