I find myself writing life lessons,
Only just to inform myself,
I'm only in high school,
But I simply don't belong,
I am okay with that,
As I walked by the lake today,
I heard everyone talking,
About me as i passed by,
I felt down,
I then realized,
Maybe it isn't me,
It's them,
I can walk down by the beach all alone,
Without shame and I can enjoy it,
I grew stronger,
I am independent,
I do not feel the need to put others down,
I only need one love and one friend,
That is what i cherish,
I have the most precious love,
The most loyal friend,
I love how my life is going,
I can raise my head up and smile,
It's sad that it takes such bravery to smile,
I do it,
I am brave,
I know who I am.

Deep,dark, and restless,
I feel as if everything is slowly slipping away,
I cant hold on much longer,
I have to let go,
Things and places i can't let go of,
Slowly but quickly,
Being pulled away,
I need to keep my situations safe,
But i'm afraid i may be losing control,
So please my friend,
Pray for the best of me.

Why doesnt the world stay sided with me,
I am happy,
But then something always brings me down,
I faced this demon,
Once,
Twice,
And even more,
I did not know this was possible,
You try so hard at getting rid of something,
But it fails to go away,
I'm not alone,
Yet i feel like i'm the lonliest,
It truly is strange how the world works,
I feel sick and yet i'm healthy,
But how long is this going to last,
Am i stuck with my demons forever,
Or will they just go away.

Silence,
Soft breeze is felt going through my hair,
Trees shake and whisper to the air,
Silence,
Thunder claps,
Lighting brights up the night sky,
Silence,
Moon hidden by clouds,
Surroundings hidden by fog,
BOOM,
The noise rolls in closer...
Faster,
Louder,
Pitter patter,
Pitter patter,
Water falls from the darkness,
It soaks the ground..
It is the only thing heard,
Lightning strikes again
Lighting the sky for only a second,
Now its darker then ever,
Hear the rain hitting the ground,
Feel the cold wind as it brushes through the trees,
Smell the air...
It smells fresh and clean,
Silence.

People are mysterious,
We all have stories,
Secrets to keep,
We all have our lies,
Truth,
Most importantly we all know pain,
It is always the ones with the most pain,
Who become the targets,
From other people they are judged,
It's a very strange process,
Giving more pain to the pain,
They already suffer,
Take time to think,
Before you judge a person,
Ask yourself what they may be going through,
What happened in the past that affected who they are,
All they are trying to do,
Is figure out why they are here,
Who they are,
Sometimes they get blinded by judgement,
They get negative answers,
They think negative thoughts,
Then they become someone....
Wrong for who they were supposed to be.

It's also the strongest people,
Who have been through the most pain,
They suffered through all,
Found themselves in a better place,
Lit up there lives,
Ignored all the judgement,
And forgave those who put them in pain,
They grew from their experiences,
They never gave up,
They followed fate,
It brought them to a stronger place.

She was once a strong woman,
Over time she grew weak,
But that isnt quite the truth,
Because,
As her body grew weak,
Her heart grew strong,
She was an angel on Earth,
Now she will be an angel else where,
As sad as it is to see her go,
Think,
Atleast she is no longer in pain,
Someone who has been here,
My entire life and longer
I dont know how im going to cope,
As long as i do cope,
I think she will be happy,
She was loved by everyone,
I never heard her name spoken negatively,
She had no enemies,
Her heart was open,
She doesn't care about your past,
She loved everybody no matter,
Now she must leave this world,
But she remains in the hearts,
She left us her memories,
She changed us all,
She no longer has to be afraid,
She no longer needs to suffer the pain,
It's hard to believe she is flying with the angels,
But she was an angel,
Put here on Earth,
Now she will be deeply missed,
Rest In Peace.
December 20, 1950
May 9, 2013