in my sleep i always cry
the bleeding in my heart will never dry
you cracked the code into my mind
and from your love i became blind

you never held me in your arms
you act like you belong in the farm
respect i rarely saw from you
my heart turned from red to blue

lies are what i tell myself
when i put our picture on my shelf
i wish i got to hold your hand
the thought of you i can barely stand  

everyone laughs when we're brought up
but nobody knows youre the one i want
my spine dances when your name is said
but deep down i know our future is dead

what i would do to be your love
my heart just flutters like a dove
the thoughts of us are pretty mushy
youre the only reason i act s gushy
in reality this is not who i am
your face makes my eyes pour like a dam

i wish i really didnt love you
cant you see you and i equal two?
youve made my heart a mess
and i've failed your test
i cannot lie

sometimes when theres nothing there
i remember their perfect hair
another reason they had perfect lives
they were practicing to be pretty wives
i remember how they were my friends
a pact we made that we would stay till the end
but once life happens
you begin to think
that people really do stink
the ones you loved with all your heart
you wake up one day and youre all apart
and every night when i think about the past
just from a year when i lived a blast
all i do is cry and cry and cry
the loneliness and lies makes me want to die