I dont understand him
one second he loves me
and the next
the next
well the next girl is already in his DMs
and I'm left as nothing

I dont understand her
she smiles at all I say
yet cries when shes alone
pretend she has no one
yet its my heart she owns

I dont understand anything
its to complicated for me
I can't discuss spatial topics
because I'm not open minded enough see

I dont get it
I dont get anything

I want to hide,
From responsibilities
Expectations
And my crippling reality

I want to run,
far from everything
I don't desire to be

I want to get lost
in darkness
Where no one can find me

I want to ignore
All that I'm feeling

And I want to hide
from me

It's hard to pretend
To keep the smile pasted on
To try to smile with my eyes

It's hard
To give all yourself away
And get nothing in return

It's hard
To lose everything
And be expected to give more

It's hard
To be awake at 3 in the morning
And wonder why your heart hurts

It's hard
To be told you don't know anything
That you're too young to understand

It's hard
To see whats happening
But live life like your missing something

It's hard
To give them everything
But they all claim "no one cares about me"

It's hard
To live with the realization that your nothing
Then be told you where wrong

It's hard
To be in love with broken things
And always getting cut in the process

It's hard
To breathe
And to wake up daily

It's hard
To be

I want to dance
I love moving to the music
and making it real
its fun to portray the music in actions
to take what I'm listening to and let it transcend through my body
but I can't
and every time I try I am told
over
and over
and over
that I cant dance
and that I should stop trying