food will destroy me
i try to become better than I am now
perfection is just around the corner
all i need to do is
resist
I will not be a slave to my body
its whining does not phase me
hunger will pass
perfection will last
dont give in to the hunger
One day you will no longer be hungry
just dont eat
drink water
do crunches
brush your teeth
repeat what i speak
perfection is just around the corner
you're almost there
I'm almost there
I can be beautiful
I can be thin
then i wont have any problems
because when I'm perfect
I will be enough
to love me

laughter lines
they stretched across her face
and you could see
she lived
but my face is clear
all you see is the streaks of dried tears
and the smile that i painted
but now the paint chiping
and everyone is realizing what is underneath
I want to be
happy
*I want to have laughter lines

I feel poetic
as if my muse is high
I decided to take you all on a ride in my mind
I imagine the seas
the great wide seas
the diamonds that seems to swim beneath the surface and gleam when the sun feels like saying hi
and oh does the sun feel
he feels the beauty of  those around him
he feels the need to share
sharing his light all over the earth
so things seem
brighter
so people go outside and can breathe
breathe
breathe in the fresh air
I imagine the ocean
the fish that glide through the water
slicing
the very thing we do to make us feel
make us feel
but for the animals its real
they jet through the water and create ripples
all we see is a hint
of there fin
an idea that they where there
oh I Imagine the ocean
how the waves kiss the sand goodbye everytime they meet
for a quick second the sand believes
the water is here
then it leaves
as fast as it came
without a goodbye on its lips
I imagine the ocean
funny how i have never been there