Roegsana Moosajee

Roegsana Moosajee Nov 2013

I woke in the morning, everything seems normal
Suddenly there is a frightening reality that you gone

As I lay to face reality
I imagine I hear the shower, I run to see if you there
But you were never there

I look into your closet, I see clothes
Nothing triggers off a memory
I guess you were never there

In the garage I hear the engine roar
Again I run to see you, I see you car
But you were never there

I sit on the couch where I use to lay in your arms
I swear that it was true
But you were never there

At a dinner table for two, I look over at the empty seat
I know you use to sit there
But you were never there

In a king size bed, now I only take a fraction of it
I use to bury myself in you
But you were never there

So how did I get here
In this house with this couch and this bed
Was it a dream
Because you were never there

Roegsana Moosajee Oct 2013

The Witch and the Priest

If she didn't have THAT past....
Would they have a future?

Roegsana Moosajee Oct 2013

My Sweetest Pain

My sweetest pain

It feels like deja- vu, yet I am the writer this time around
I have set the stage, everything is on cue
I decided how this will end, I planned it all
Right to the time the dagger hits my heart
I choose to relive the pain
Because its my sweetest pain

The pain was so intense, I was submerged in it
So I rewrote the script, so that I would feel it again
Only this time i will not be numbed by the shock
This time I will make sure that it doesn't break me
I am prepared to sacrifice everything
Just to ******* sweetest pain
Again

Do you think its coincidence that the life span is the same
Or that the offspring is the same ages in both productions
The only way to perfect it, is to rehearse it
That way I control when the dagger strikes
That way I can ******* sweetest pain
Again

The scripts are identical in so many ways
I smile at how well I planned it, this is my Oscar moment
All the actors are in place, cameras ready to roll
As I strike the dagger
I smile as I feel my sweetest pain
Again!

Roegsana Moosajee Oct 2013

Lost

When u travel on a road,
You have a map
When you travel by sea or desert,
You have a compass
When you travel by air,
You have navigation
When you travel by your heart,
What do you have?

When you feel, it directs you,
When your soul leaps, it moves you forward,
When the wind blows it causes you to turn,
Even just to change your direction
When your emotions are lost,
How do u move?

I have searched for the tremmer,
Or just a breeze,
Just a bump to knock me,
I searched for it in an ******
I searched for it at the bottom of a bottle
I looked in my childrens laughs
Where is it?

I am lost, for I know not what direction to take
I don't know who I am, or where I need to be
How do I send out a cry for help?
How do I call for rescue?

I search for silence, silence of the ever growing fear
Fear of loss
Fear of abandonment
Fear of rejection
Fear of failure
Fear of never being found!

Roegsana Moosajee Oct 2013

Bravery

Things we lost in the fire,
Sometimes the things we loose while in battle are not physical things
But rather characters of ourselves
I lost my bravery

I used to be able to jump into anything with guns blazing
Yet today I cannot decide what's my next step
Because I lost my most prized possession
I lost my bravery

Bravery has always been my tool to make the most of my life
Never afraid to loose
Of everything I lost in the fire
I miss my bravery the most

Roegsana Moosajee Oct 2013

Dream 2

I close my eyes as I breathe in the ocean, I am happy
A little white house on the beach, you and I sitting on a verander facing the ocean
I smile as peace flows over me, this is my dream
My dream with u by my side

But you not here, you haven't been here for years
How does my heart recover when all it wanted was you
My heart searched for a similar love
And it has not found it, so now it transports me here
To my dream
My dream with you by my side

My heart comes here to feel you near
To smell your sweet mask, the smell that remains in it
My heart comes here to taste the happiness its lost
To taste the softness of your lips, the softness that soothes it
Yet this is a dream
My dream with you by my side

Now that my heart is filled with the memory of you, I smile
I open my eyes, tears rolling down my face because I know
That my dream is gone
My dream of you by my side

Roegsana Moosajee Oct 2013

My Soul

My soul where are you?
You have vanished from me
Yet sometimes I get a glimpse of you
But I close my eyes because you a reminder of all I lost
So I remain empty
Missing the piece of me that has hope and love

I no longer smile from you
I no longer dance from you
You are gone and I am glad you are
Although there is a part of this body
That longs to be a part of your happiness

But I cannot let you back in,
Fear has frozen my limbs
Fear has frozen my lips
Fear has frozen my heart
For I know I can never let myself be hurt
Again