Can't write a poem
Though a poem is my home
It's the place where I roam

If I can make things rhyme
In time in time in time
Too many syllables ****
****.
Can't think of much to rhyme with **** so
Lamb Lamb Lamb

Or I could be romantic
A rose knows how to tie bows
So it curls its toes and wrinkles its nose
Prose Prose Prose

Unfortunately, I am just me
An incomplete, awkward poem-to-be
But I persist and jot my lines
To a world where I am **undefined.

I don't know why I did what I did
The words spilled and shattered as they collided with my
Unidivided
Attention

Happiness creeps in, is hungry
Starving
Has to sneak for food
But is chased away
By an endless mood

It scoops out my heart
Leaves a gap for storage
Of all the items I have nowhere to place

My chair feels uncomfortable
As do my clothes
My skin
My teeth
My nose
My organs are closed

My body knows what it needs
But does not know the chore
It will punch holes in me and ask what
I'm waiting for.

What you're going through is normal
I don't feel normal

You have friends and family that love you and want to help you
I want him

Hurting yourself won't fix anything
That means it can't hurt anything, either

This feeling fades, it goes away
I don't want it to go away

It was a great love
It still is and I'm never letting go

I gave him everything

... Everything?

**Everything.

I met a void the other day
He speaks in stutters and rolls his tongue
Talks in slang, then ambles away

And later when I pondered him I wondered
Why both sides of my pillow are soiled
And my journal tastes of salt

I lace these minions with my love
Pull each apart
Too occupied to face my bare heart

So littered and heated with old despair
And for as long as he cares
The void is there.

I sit and swallow
Shards of panic
Follow follow
Lines of manic

Count to ten
Count to two
Flash of happy
Think of you
My ribs collapse
Soul relapse

The exhale's sharp
Jabs my heart
But I take a swig
And push the start

So I sit through life
Here I stay
Knowing everything I've had
I've thrown away.

I need you to know
That every part of me belongs to you
That when I close my eyes and heart
That I am hurting, too

I need you to know
That I need you there
Though it's not fair to you
I need you to know I care

I need you to know
That when I broke your heart in two
I held both halves
But they were both for you

I need you to know
That I'll get those in the mail
Though post is slow and I am nervous
Because you know they're very frail

I need you to know
That even though we're through
I will sniff the flowers and fix myself
On my way back to you

So when you're flying without strings
And you can hear my thoughts below
Just know that I'm not trying to hurt you, but
I needed you to know.

You can find me on the water slide
Picking daisies apart and whispering your name
Backwards
Forwards
And still it sounds the same

You will find me glancing through time and
Turning pages fast when I see
The ugly photographs
Of me

You will find me buried in the sand
The beads are salty
They are dry
And the nostalgic sound of crashing water makes me
Want to cry

The sand grows warm and I drift to sleep
And I dream of a shore
Where we are washed up
Hand in hand
Core to core