it's gonna be a long time
he says, hands clutching his arms
and i want to pry his fingers
away, kiss the tips and
hide him from his fears

not forever, though
i tell him and
i hope he knows that
scars fade but we are both
talking about something bigger
so he smiles and says

*no, not
forever

If I didn't visit
I would forget how to miss you
And the worst part is

I'm not sure if that's a bad thing anymore

you asked me if i
thought it hurt when
icarus threw himself into the
sun

i didn't have the heart to
tell you how the story ended
how he woke up in a burn
ward

how he flipped a coin
heads or tails and when
it came up daedalus was still
dead

you can romanticize it all you
want but we all know who's
who in this metaphor and how
sweet

it will feel when you incinerate
me i promise when i wake up
wherever that is i'll still write you
psalms

some days i think
you're a saint, and it's
stupid, because all
you have to do is
smile or refill my coffee
before i can even ask,

but it's more than
anyone else has done,
and if i let it slip
that i'm a little bit
in love,
i wouldn't even be
sorry.

where the road ends
a hollowed-out husk
rests, smoking, ashen
                                      and if i could make myself believe
                                             the pyrotechnics were my own
you wouldn't have to
set your fires anymore

you hide them
under tattoos, sleeves, belligerence
as if i wouldn't see
them anyway
as if i wouldn't love
you anyway

let me be your sutures and i will
kiss your scars until they are healed

you make the moon ex-
pand with your laugh and contract
when you fall to sleep

don't move up north or
that midnight sun will steal your
magic, your heart, mine

enemiga mía, hace cuatro años
nos conocimos y hasta este día
todavía no hablamos ¿recuerdas
cuando éramos amistades?

todas las noches en la hierba,
la nieve, revolcandonos sobre el
piso y a veces en el
cielo. ¿qué le pasó a nuestra
unidad? estos días me temes,
estos días quiero perdonar.

te echo de menos.
deseo que seas bendecida
que se jodan los ex novios,
quiero ser otra vez tu amiga.