I love you
But I'm not in love with you
Words too familiar
Sounds too similar

I know you
But you don't know me
And you never will
The thought of it scares you

I'm deep
Only deeper than your depth of comfort
If you want to know me
You will have to submerge

No matter what you do
No matter what your say
I will always be there
In every every single way

I will always love you
And treat you as you should
Be treated and you know this
So why should I repeat it?

A poet
A painter
A reader of dreams
She sings to me when
We are in between sheets

We can speak in tongues
Or just by ****** features
I'll read you and you'll read me

Her voice
Her scent
Her body beguiles
It leaves you speechless
With blood in your mouth

I wander confused
Or maybe caught by surprise
Maybe nothing was happening

This sweet
This soft
This delicate lady
Has thorns like a rose
Primed to inject venom

No remedy in sight
Or I'm just nearsighted
Is this all just a dream?

I won't sleep tonight
   Because I can't do so
       In your arms
   Because my bed
       Is too cold

I'll stare at the ceiling
   Because I can't
       Hear your breathing
   Or feel the rising
       Of your chest on mine

I'll be awake for days
   Since I cannot find one to
       Occupy the this vacancy
   Someone to clot
       This open wound

I'll bleed to death
   Not from thinning blood
       From trauma and not enough
   Arms to pat me
       On the back

I'll rise out of my
   Lifeless husk and
       Show you what you're missing
   Look inside yourself
       Now you know what could have been

A bourbon will do
I think I'll have two
Three ought to make me feel great

But face meets the floor
After I've consumed four
And five makes me act like an ***

Whiskey will nurture me
**** me and torture me
All at the very same time

But that never stops me
From getting scotch in me
My blood becomes thinner than wine

All I want is to hold you
Is that not enough
I could ******* for days
If it's true

I'll treat you like gold
Wrapped in diamonds encased
In a box
Made of glass just for you

But you won't accept it
Since you only know
How you feel
When they're beating your ***

Take it as you will
Truths hurt like a *****
In this case
It hurts so much like you

Stabbing me in the stomach
Without end in sight
Remorseless
Until I deplete

Stop giving me hope
Stop reeling me in
And you know
What you're doing to me

Don't pretend it's OK
That your love's on it's way
It is not
And I realize this now

You just string me along
Like I'm some sort of fool
It's too bad
That I caught on so late

So I'll move along
And you'll miss out the most
Since I'll treat you
The greatest of all

Out of every past love
You will never end up
Feeling better
Than you ever felt

I'll write you a poem
Using only the most
Beautiful of words
The only words that can
Describe the love I have for you
The spaces you occupy
In my heart and soul
Are warmer because you live there

If you write me a story
About anything you choose
About yourself, preferably
About past love and hate
Without time or place
Include vivid images
Of pain and happiness
With whatever colors you see fit

We can create a dream
I'll illustrate it with pastels
You can narrate
I'm apathetic as to
What it looks like
Or what it sounds like
So long as you are there
Building a dream with me

You build me like a tower
Just to cut me at the base
I fall and you come running
To wipe dirt off of my face

This kind of mystifies me
'Cause all the love that I see
Is sweet transcending blissful
Accidents

Then I wonder can I leave
And should I stay
What will happen when I'm gone
Does it matter if I'm here
Or if I'm not

When I am hurt you kick me
And laugh when I grow sickly
From wounds that you reopen
Just to smile