There are times when loss seems unbearable,
Like when you walked out of my life;
The vacuum like infinite space grew between us,
A universe of despair.
It's not so much the pain as the silence,
The cool bedside and place on my chest
Where you used to lay your head
When we slept.
I took you for granted, and I pay now;
You come to me still in dreams,
Leaving me awake in dark hours,
Tossing and wishing.
You are doomed forever to exist in a part of my mind,
I cannot send you out, you burrowed too deep,
Now I feel the holes in my soul
Acute and diseased.
It's the fear that strangles me,
The thought that there will never be another like you,
That no star could shine as bright as you did,
Lighting my life.
I miss you terribly, like a caged bird misses the sky;
Wings now clipped, I can no longer fly away,
Into the blue expanse that was us,
The pure perfection.
All I can now do is beg you, don't judge me too harshly,
For the sins I committed, the mistakes of youth;
And know that I always loved you, more than this world,
And I forever will.