One cannot put in words the exact feeling of going crazy
it's like asking the stars in the sky what it's like to drop down into people's pockets
it is asking too much because
I cannot show you how my veins freeze and race in the same moment
because I cannot tell you the chills I get on every square inch of my skin when his eyes split me wide open
I cannot tell you how the sun can burst inside of me when his hand meets mine
or maybe when his fingertips write a story of galaxies into my bones
I cannot bare to tell you I cannot speak those words because you are sitting there you are sitting there staring at a screen you are reading a story when he is carving explosions into the very fabrics of my insides.

I'm torn in so many directions
Stretched so far, my skin's tearing at the seams
With a thread and a needle I slowly sew myself back
But like a mirror with a crack, I can never be the same again
I've been quartered and skinned
With lungs blackened by sin
Drug through the dust by those better than me
Nails left jagged by the scratches
Trying to claw my way out of the hole you left me in
To fend for myself from the lions and men
Nothing to do or hold on to as I try to get out
Falling further than I ever could climb