Its been so long
its taken forever
its what kept me going
its what kept my head above water
its what i needed to survive
and here i am
about to be adopted
about to be happy
all for the first time
here i am with my new beginning

the time we have together now is slim
the time we had together is my favorite movie
our time is running out
our time is scarce
its about time to say goodbye
its about time your free
free from pain
free from hate
time is running out
but don't worry it won't be long
your new beginning has come
don't worry it won't be long
I'll see you again
in a better place
in a better race
at a different time
at a different home
this is a farewell
not a goodbye
I'll see you on the other side
but for now farewell
but for now our time is up

its a thought in my head
its a memory in my heart
its the pain in my chest
its the trauma in my head
it gives me these thoughts
it gives me these thoughts
it gives me these issues
it shows my mistakes
it shows my pain
it explains my actions
it explains my thoughts
it defines what i been through
not who i am
try to correct it and you'll be wrong
try to make it worse and you'll fall
its there for a reason
its there to stay
its my history
my mistake
my pain
its my story to claim
its harsh but i'm alive
i survived

your my dreams
your my needs
your the key to my heart
your the key I need
your cute
your awesome
your everything
you say you don't date
so I don't hate

each day my love for you grows
each day I want to be closer to you
I try to tell you how I feel
I know I do, but not enough
its big enough to hold me captive
its big enough too **** me
its all on time
its time that that holds me captive
its time that kills me
I just want you to know one thing
I love you for life

My feelings for you are different
they are unique
no matter who i am with
its not the same
its not right
My feelings for you are strong
my feelings for you are real
they are never felt for anyone else
its only you

Boring
that's what its called
that's exactly what it is
nothing to do
nothing to say
all you can do is think
think aloud
think in your head
its all there is to do
it destroys
it creates
its a hot mess
its all chaos
so you can only think
think about this
think about that
it controls you
it devours you
boring
its what it is
boring