[9: 15 p.m.]
for some reason, my ribs ache when i think of you
they feel incomplete like gaps in between teeth
empty spaces where a heart should keep pumping
then i imagine you next to me and it skips a beat
or maybe two
[10:32 p.m.]
normally it's the chase that gets me most thrilled
i heard once that lions sometimes hunted for the hell of it
but i can't seem to find heaven tangled in these phone lines
it is better to back down before i get myself wounded
or even worse
[10:49 p.m.]
tear stains seem more permanent than ebony ink
so i wrote you a song on the tip of my eyelashes
but you couldn't remember how to read the music
a few violin strings and promises were broken
in the process
[11:56 p.m.]
they say drinking hot tea creates the same effect
as physical closeness, the touch of human warmth
i settled for coffee and the heat of a texas summer
but it wasn't the same feeling as when you held me
in my dream
[12:11 a.m.]
there are so many wasted nights in the wastebasket
of poetry written about love and loss and anger
and not enough about the indescribable feeling
of staying up at night just to hear your voice
for an hour
[12:47 a.m.]
there was a time when i got sick at the sound of laughter
sunshine gave me a never-ending, piercing migraine
i stared into the dark and screamed profanities into my pillow
because i wished i could be content alone and without you
for one second
[1:21 a.m.]
someone once told me i have the memory of an elephant
but i forgot to tell you that you give me the strangest euphoria
like eating gas station sushi on long trips to my hometown
or wearing mismatched socks underneath my favorite shoes
and autumn nights
[2:13 a.m.]**
sometimes we focus too heavily on the tiny details
to realize that if we step back for a second, we will see
a beautiful masterpiece right in front of us instead of
mistakes under the guise of "amateur brushstrokes"
and "just friends"
[3:30 a.m.]
there are times where i can't distinguish
between tachycardia and a broken heart
but i do know that i love you in some way
and if i never told you that before now
well I'm sorry