I rather get hurt
Then scarred from your words
You don't know me
I don't owe you anything
You never asked
just assumed
Demand something you can't even give too
A hypocrite
You control people
By guilt
Words like honey
But intentions are filth
Your actions aren't genuine
You make kindness a crime
You say that you care
And then go around telling people ******* lies
I rather get hurt by your bluntness
Then scarred from your *******
I rather get hurt by knives
Then your passive aggressiveness
I rather get hurt by your words
Then scarred by your
Fake promises....

I betrayed myself
I rather have died
Then curve my own ways
and live with my lies
Selling integrity away
holding on to something
That's broken and frayed
I'm frozen
It's hell,
The story won't stop
Retelled and retelled
It's relentlessly retold
waiting for these memories to go old
meditate
For better days
To forget it
repeating past hurts
Is Addictive
It's my ugly bad habit
I want rehab
for the sickness and madness
The War in my head
Put me on edge like a savage
Im tired
But have to fight
Or there will always thick clouds
Blocking daylight

I'm drinking again
It hurts to pretend
And you don't understand
Why this hurts so bad
I'm sorry..
Everything was a lie
As I sit here and cry
It's killing me inside
I just wanna die
I'm sorry..
It all was a game
For my pleasure and gain
I thought I'd feel the same
But all I feel is pain
I'm sorry..
Baby I broke your heart
I tore you apart
I wish we could
Just restart
I'm sorry..
As I take this knife
To my chest
I cry like rain
It just pours
I pierce my heart
Like my lies did yours
I'm sorry..

I hate seeing you
And feeling you
There is no leaving you
I want you dead..
You have no pride
Your empty inside
And don't even bother
Saying goodbye
I want you dead..
I pray everyday
That you can't stay
And your angel
Takes you away
I want you dead..
All alone
With no backbone
Is what it will say
On your gravestone
I want you dead..
I'll use this gun
To set you free
I just wish
You were anyone..
But me

I know when I'm not wanted
It doesn't need to be said
I just know
So that's why I'm letting you go
For the sake of me
And For the sake of you
I don't want to walk in circles anymore
getting nowhere at all
Ignoring that gut feeling
As it slowly spills out
Never knowing if ur real
Or acting it all out
How can I trust you
When your words and actions
don't match up
My door is always open
And the hardest thing is knowing you'll walk past it like nothing
I hurt myself waiting
As your coming and going
It's pathetic
It's stupid
Drowning my thoughts with lullabye music
I don't know why I keep ******* doing this
I'm tired of these illusions
Betrayed by my heart
As it slowly becomes cold and hard
That's what happens
When you try to find love in the dark

Seeing the fall
eye of the storm
I see
I feel
I looked
I sought
I searched for the end
And found what I lost
What humanity said
Humanity Is dead
A shallow world
Covered in blood
Colored in red
Running horses
Only see what ahead
I dare you To step back
And Dont react
As you look through the blinds
Peek through the cracks
you'll hear the screams
And the shouts
hands trying to cover the mouth
The poor
Endured
 demons hide
behind your door
That you ignore
As you soar
higher
The line of inequity
Rises
As you desire
Sets a fire
You're all liars
Take my Hand
I'll shatter
Your eyes
see the lies
You tell yourself at night
As children fight
To stay alive
You take life
With ignorance
You'll pay
karma will humble your oblivious arrogance
Just you wait
Justice is vengance
a transition to Renaissance
Please Guide us to heaven
Or lead us down the well
The hell we bought
And the soul that we sell
Paved in these stones
Darkness is the sentence
See the connections
Look closely
And you find my words far...
From irrevelent