Doll house sized window
with voices passing by
weaving in and out
of consciousness
sleeps a losing battle
in cubbies like these
you crawl into bed
bury yourself beneath sheets
and forget the noise outside
forget the the things that crawl in the walls
forget the *** you hear next door
forget the chastity belt you locked yourself

infringing upon my rights
i smoked them all away
frayed hearts and unheld hands
watching deep red curling flames

little strings upon my fingers
a marionette to do the bidding
of a world that ***** itself time again
then spends a life time on forgetting


i fold to life
my hand is ****

wish i lived
somewhere still
i want to blend in with the walls


where its easy to fall victim
to times heavy toll
and shrivel away

i want scars
that burrow deeper than
the scratches on my back

come find me
wasting
breath

life dangles lemons
just out of reach

lets just pretend
  - fill each other up
with
sterile smiles
and synchronized laughs
we can go on quiet walks
and whisper fake hellos

lets pretend
our milky eyes and wrinkled foreheads
are problems fixed in time

lets pretend
man didn't scalpel the world
into tiny little pieces
defiling its great potential
separating hearts and minds
  hands and waists
families and religion

lets pretend a flag is worth my empty chest

self distructions a daily high
i watch hundreds implode ritually
cant make sense of the masochism
we perpetuate so consistently



theres a thousand eyes watching the cracks in the floor
ignoring this noose around my neck
theres a thousand ears with headphones in
ignoring their own cries for help

none of you have ink on your hands or words on your tongue
just a mouse between your fingers
clicking away
and away
and away
from reality