Each month torn of,
pages upon pages;
confined by your past,
cages upon cages

Yes it's true
we all get a fresh page
but what if it's indented
By past writings and spaces?

Maybe we're all just
based upon our base
Defined by what happened
on a former date

But Still every day we try
searching hands, fingers reaching out
Almost there touching the imagined fruit
But still barely missing out

It's a rope made out
of roads we walked on
Chains made out
of things we dreamt and did
Clasped around our ankles taut
We'll never be able to close the lid

Thus when others see new dates
I see new maps to those old destinations
And when they open up hope's floodgates
I lock them up with familiar inclinations

Carly's just blossomed
Now she walks with a wicked twist
And a knowing smile on her lips
While the boys look on
Because that's all they're allowed to do
To take turns to try who gets to woo her
Rather they take turns getting rejected, no one gets to her
She knows what she does to them,she does it a lot  
but who can blame her it's the fault of her lot
She was a lonely child, shunned and ridiculed
Her eyes, still hungry, are dried up pools
So she exchanges love for lust
She tries to get their attention not their trust
She feeds manically on their desire
And the way they want her so
All she does is flash that 'innocent' smile
And the boys keep coming back for more

She walks the stony streets with the newly turned 19 steps
And sways her hips and licks those lips
The looks turn to stares their eyes look on
and she fills her inner dessert with their ***** dreams
Passers by whisper in their  all knowing indifference
She wasn't love as a child she likes to lash out and scream
Likes to be noticed for those suggestive smiles
They are like warm hugs, those staring and roving eyes
But she already knew that
Knew why her innards are always dry and she knows those leeches' attention is only passing by
But what can you tell someone so desperate to be adored
she does not want to be loved she just doesn't want to be ignored

I don't want to write about you
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Yet again.

After one point of time cruelty stops making you cry instead love becomes baffling enough to bring tears to your eyes.

Do you know that feeling when
your heart is full
Of that horrible feeling
Everything is wrong
And your heart swells so much
That it's in your throat
And you might just throw up
Retch and retch and dry heave?
Yeah, neither do I

They fall in love with her
Because she's mean
They like the chase
They just don't know
That she doesn't get caught
While I'm beside standin still
And they don't see me
Won't see me till
She runs away or breaks their heart
And they come to me to mend their parts
They say I wish I'd fallen for you
You'd never treat me like she'll do
And I smile because it's true
I'd like to think so too
But that wouldn't happen, They won't fall for me
You see Boys only want love when it's agony