As soon as I closed my eyes,
the memories fought back in
and I was so paralyzed
to know that I had no kin
you were the one, my family
you were the only light I'd see
in the darkness of this cruel world,
just enough to break my soul

As soon as I laid in surrender,
the words you said floated in my head,
and I was numb to believe,
that I would never see you again,
you were the one, who knew me best
you were the only reason left,
in the choices that I had to make
you were my only chance to live

As soon as I felt the rain,
touch my palm and again,
and you were the one, to make me feel
that I still had a chance to heal
you were the one to quiet the noises,
in my head,the disturbing voices
how could he take you away
If you'd live just another day

Why won't he take me?
why would he choose break me,
I've heard that the people he takes along
are the best and the most humble ones
why would you leave me now?
after healing me with every touch of yours

You were taken away,
and I wish I was taken tomorrow
for this world for small enough
to hold in my sorrow

As soon as I woke up again,
I knew I'd never hold your hand
I'd never hear you sing again
I'd never hear you say just live again
I'd never just be who I am.

It's such a tragedy, it's such a shame,
Oh, the melancholy, oh the pain,
how things built together fall apart,
and yet to find, there are no remains
how quickly promises are forgotten,
oh how quickly memories are erased
in my little broken wings, my love
there is a scar ,carved in your name
the pain is inevitable, the misery cannot be explained,
but what breaks, breaks in a million pieces
and it'll never be the same.

Hatred, runs in my veins,
right here in the chest it pains,
Never was loved too much to feel,
Never did I ever heal.
The scars remain as it is,
as the sky falls down, its a miss,
I am hurt, but you never let me die,
to not believe in you, is my try.
Never saw you in a loving way,
nailed you to death, how could they?
Still you seem to be so alive,
saving me and all of them, at least tell me whats your name ?
Power to hold the universe,
to the good you bless to the bad you curse,
why is it , that they love to pray,
won't do a good deed but expect a good day.
Why is it, that you have ultimate fame?
everyone gives you a different name.
You save some, let a million die,
Why don't you appear up front, aren't you too shy?
What is it that gives them peace to pray,
who are you, and what do you want to save?
don't you see murders and terrorists all around!
The lord, why do you let the bad invade ?
Why is it, that half of the world doesn't believe,
or is it true, that you aren't there !
Its your creation, man and this earth,
why won't a glimpse you'd share?
Almighty, i am not sure of what to think,
to believe or to not, what more life could bring?
more than flowers and birds and all the beautiful things,
and the farmers daughter in the farm who'd sing..
differents cultures religions and all the people you made,
it's beautiful but aren't you afraid ?
what if, if one day it'll all just fade?
will you help us, come down and give us shade ?
I don't believe in you, I'm scared if my trust must be broken,
only a miracle can show them, their minds it'll awaken.
be sure, sweet lord, my word is true,
there is something you need to prove!

The pain is withered away with words
that don't mean a thing to the outsiders
the smell of you still lingers on my shirt
the tears are few but you were my first

and maybe still the last to see my cry
because i'm feeling incomplete to feel again

Is it the stars that shine so bright
but still don't match your eyes enough?
or it the way
you left me alone in dark
and I still won't ask why

Is it my passion
or mere obsession

I ask myself everyday
this question
but I fail yet every time to know
what it is to let go