One poisonous idea flowing underneath my skin
Injected into my bloodstream through a dirt syringe
Take advantage of, use and abuse me
Do whatever you want, I have no dignity
Crawling through gravel and spit
Swimming through of sea of *******
Infection spreads starting in my ears
Bringing light to my darkest fears

And now I'm gone

A man born inside a cyclone will always spin
He walks a crooked path, smiles a crooked grin
A swirling torrent of energy
Unable to be controlled,... having no symmetry
****** down the drain and stuck in the well
He sees no difference in an utopia or hell
Pushes away, likes to keep his distance
Most will even question his existence
Such a strange being, what kind of world is he in?
What is he seeing through those crystal eyes and that crooked grin?
A tongue like a snakes and a bite twice as venomous
A vicious demeanor described as monstrous
A man of pure intentions and a strong will
But when born in a cyclone nothing ever stands still
A star has fallen and an angel lost its wings
The demons are calling and a siren sings
For a man born inside a cyclone
Throws caution to the wind
He's a crooked man walking a crooked path
With a crooked grin

How long must I stand alone in this field of exclusion?
How long must I stand alone in this field of disillusion?
I see a mirage, a desert oasis
It's just a mirage and i know i can't escape this

Laying in the trenches dug only three feet deep
Lie the decaying corpses of the ignorant and the weak
Try all I may but i can't escape the stench
I see there bodies deteriorate as maggots consume their flesh

There's no life to be seen in this barren wasteland
Plant your seeds of life and love, plant all you can
Because in this field we call the Dead Mans Grove
You can plant all you want but nothing will grow

How long must I stand alone in this field of exclusion?
How long must I stand alone in this field of disillusion?
I feel a cold deathly wind blow through my bones
As I stare at this ghastly land that many call home

I walked across a tightrope
Balanced on a razors edge
Trying to cut a diamond
Out of an arrowhead

Its facets were ***** and murky
It shined underneath the crust
I cut and i carved and wouldn't you know
This diamond turned to dust

I want to destroy something beautiful
An innocent child's stained-glass mind
Throw a rock through it
Watch it shatter and fall
I want to look into the face of Divine Greatness and ******* in its eye
I want to mentally ****** everybody in existence
Our minds have been ******
Since the dawn of civilization
Man is anything but civilized

We are Savages

Savages of a demented,
Macabre masquerade
Waltzing on roses
While the thorns pierce our souls
We stare into the face of all evil
We recognize its intentions
And welcome it with
Warm open arms

I immerse myself in literary marvels and self-loathed poems
Any brilliance found in my work ,
Is in the space between words and the gaps between the lines.
Silence is golden.
I survive by breaking the golden rule...

...I want to take you everywhere I've been.
To have you look through these eyes,
The filtered images through liquidized eyes
Accompanied by ghastly thoughts.
Come onto this roller coaster ride.
Battle my demons.
Try to win...

How long can i endure?
I've buried them so many times.
The zombies and ghosts travel in my shadows,
Lightly and ever so softly
Pushing nails into my brain.
Showing me picture shows of beautiful stories.
Stories of love and companionship,
And spirit crushing images of a slow dissipation of lives...

---- Welcome to my dementia ---

...The outer limits of a young boys mind
A ****** in a devirginized world.
Dancing on forbidden ideas.
Lusting for a sense of belonging and genuine companionship.
A world of electric monologues and synthetic laughter.
The well has dried up and i thirst,
I thirst for sincerity.

Pull the trigger and land the bullet
Into the mental membrane.
Punch a hole right through it.
Become the catalyst for a revolution.
Let the light in to melt the wax exterior.
To enable a freedom long since forgotten.

Let them breath...

Let them breed.

I can't carry the worlds weight on my shoulders
I'm the monkey and you're my master
You keep me chained to this ***** grinder
Turning the crank you're my biggest debt collector
How much do i owe you? I cant seem to remember

And I can't keep dancing
Picking up change that people throw
And I cant keep trying
To squeeze blood from a stone

Please can you spare some change?
Any amount will do
You and me we are the same
I'm a stranger just like you

I'm gonna purchase my ticket
Down at the liquor store
I'm gonna sail the amber seas
'Til i reach the floor

Baby please stop pulling these reigns
Can't you see that I've already stopped
You've sewn all of my seeds
And then you burned all the crops

Ending each night with lethal doses
Between the rubber hoses
And the ****** noses
Baby tell me how am i to pretend
It's all wine and roses

I traded all my dollars for
A hot shot in the rain
And you know you should never trust
A man who's wearing
A ball and chain

Just spare me a pittance
You can hold onto your pity
You know one of the days
I'll be a grease spot on this city

And if i died
Two weeks from today
You can rest easy knowing
I wanted it that way