******-analyze-

I feel like I am dying
     Affixation

I can not breathe!

Suffocating-
      Drowning-
...breaths of air become fewer
    And further apart.

No one even cares.

Denial---
    Mismatched & misunderstood.

Stuck- trapped
Bound by my word.

Tears roll down her cheeks
   as her knees hit the floor.
Paralyzed-
      Fear and anger!

You're sitting to the right
   Beside her
Yet it feels like
   She's living with a stranger.

Misery loves to mingle---
    Loves to be in your company.

To my dismay,
You obviously do not see
    What one day will be---
something so foreseen, like that of a prophecy.

Fortune teller
Wanderer of the night...
     Gypsy lady
Spawned from the original Wild Child
Who dedicated her bra... Stand up for what you
believe In.

****  
  Heathens.

  How long must this drag out?  


Time
     is very precious.  
  
Yes, I have acquired patience.
    
Refusing to bring an innocent soul into this-
     Suspended animation and false fabrication
      Of lies that are the foundation
     In which your existence is created from.
So was mine.   I will learn from
someone else's mistakes.

--to bring meaning for a foolish act once done.  
Now it's justified.

   The truth will set you free.  
Why don't those words roll of my tongue,
as easily as the advice just was?


Now I am trapped
     Now I am stuck in a rut.

Feels as if I have been punched in the gut.    Sick to my stomach.

I'm signing off...
    But not like that, not for like "forever."

Hey man, I think I'm getting better.  Let's keep
that between, just you and me.

Naive
Gullible
Ignorant



Meaningless to you, are the few morals I care to
Voice to you.  
        Trust-   The little that was there just got swept up
By the lies or misrepresented information you so
   Proudly And adamantly Assured me were to be true

Who are you to decide the outcome of my body?

You can not trick me into doing things your way.
      
    .... It's my fault, for being so gullible  and trustingly
With something so precious as another life being
Brought into this ****** up and twisted world

It takes two to tango and you do not get to dangle
Me around and control me like a ******* puppet

**** it

I  not overreacting--
     How dare you speak of instructions or give me
Advice- and it be untrue??
      Perhaps I would not jump to accusation
If you did not become immediately defensive and
   Try to convince me to have your way of thinking!

Deception
    It's all becoming
So clear.


Accusation
    And admissions of your little games.

Now you are playing with tiny lives and unborn souls

Emotions are now frozen.

     I am not as dumb as you may think

This ship is about to sink.    

To be honest- judging by your actions it may
Already have sunk
      Now this raft is deflating

As your respect and common sense is depleting

And my common sense seeps out

just as my heart bleeding...



11-30-2014
Rhea Bryan