Reza Mahani

Reza Mahani Aug 2012

The insight came later
once the rain started pouring
and the black lady in skirt and high heels
took off her shoes

She could not hear me thinking
how magnificent she was
running barefoot
on the wet concrete
of the empty street

Out of reach
out of control
as life flourishes
in the fullness of
an unexpected moment

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

Reza Mahani Jul 2012

Poetry Night

How can you tell her,
''I love you!''
when you don't know
what love is?
How can you tell her,
''I want to see you!''
when you don't know
if you want to see her
or you are escaping
the frightening void within?

So you take the bottle
and empty all pills
on your palm.
It's the perfect time:
She won't be back any time soon
and you have enough time
to finish things clean
and you ask yourself,
''Do I want to do this?''
over and over
and hear no response
so you put the pills back
in the bottle
and think
''I do not even have the courage
to do this!''

And you decide to go to Java Monkey,
Sunday evening is the poetry night,
and you tell yourself
I am going to smoke
and finish every cigarette
on my skin.
Oh Lord!
How much I need the Lord
or anything
to that effect

They recite poems
and you float in your dreams
or rather nightmares
thousands of miles away
from anything
that can be characterized
as enjoyment.
Yeah, I am enjoying
my ******* life
mang!

http://www.urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=Mang&defid;=6427796
Mang:
A male that acts like a ***, ******, Queer and/or Fairy.
Derived from the latin term Mangina.

Sunday, July 22, 2012

Reza Mahani Jul 2012

*****

Over there
toilets are,
essentially,
holes in the ground
decorated and sometimes modernized
and you sit on them
feeling a lot of pressure
on your knees
and it's hard to imagine
that one can *******
in such an uncomfortable position
But it can be done ...

I want to forget ...

Sunday, July 08, 2012

Reza Mahani Jun 2012

As good as any

Today was a good day,
as good as any,
to walk in the park,
to touch and be touched,
to sniff and be sniffed,
and to leave unfulfilled

Today was a good day,
as good as any,
to take a nap in the afternoon
and then wake up
with a dull pain in the chest
and the feeling of missing someone
to the point of madness

Tonight was a good night,
as good as any,
to shed tears in the movie theater
for a gay old man
who betrayed his lover
only to find out
years later
that he had deserted himself

Tonight is a good night,
as good as any,
to say the final goodbye

Friday, June 01, 2012

Reza Mahani May 2012

Lover

If I leave,
it's not a reflection
on who you are:
The time has come.

Sunday, May 20, 2012

Reza Mahani Apr 2012

Regret

When it's time to say goodbye
I will miss my dad the most
because I never found the courage
to tell him how much I love him

I' ll ask for their forgiveness,
in my thoughts, and
will tell them that I am tired,
very tired,
that I need to sleep
for a very very long time.

Monday, February 20, 2012
I slept for an hour after writing the above poem, not a very very long time, and then played an hour of tennis. I felt much better after that, and then I called my dad and told him how much I love him, and forced him to tell me that he loves me :) This item is off my list.

Reza Mahani Mar 2012

Land of No Magic

Beyond depression there is a land
where death is the only magic
and sky is painted in black regrets
rivers of sorrow have long disappeared
in hot winds of resent
and faceless creatures crawl
in shadows of loneliness
desperation echos fill the void
and happy memories cut
deep into my rotten soul

Thursday, March 22, 2012