She is both,
hellfire and holy water.
And the flavor you taste,
depends on how you,
treat her.

Accept that you deserve more
Than painful love
Life is moving
And the healthiest thing
For your heart is
To move with it❤️

They are hints in the songs she loves,they may make your ears bleed,but they will help you interpret the words that buried under her tongue and the caged thoughts of her mind.

Aku sering di beritahu
bahawa apa yang kita buat
pada hari ini dan sebelumnya
bakal ada balasannya di kemudian hari
sama ada dalam bentuk baik atau tidak
dan aku sering berfikir bahawa
tidak kira berapa teruk kita di layan orang
dan berapa buruk perlakuan yang orang lakukan pada kita
akan di balas dengan kebaikan
pada masa hadapan.
Sabar itu indah,
tapi ter kadang aku hilang sabar,
menghadap manusia yang ignorant,
menghadap manusia yang bodoh,
manusia yang pentingkan ego,
dan manusia yang kurang ajar.

tell them i was the warmest place you knew and you turned me into cold.

Make yourself available to people.
Be someone shoulder,
Be someone 4 am calls,
And be someone savior.
You never knew whose life you are saving,maybe even your own.

Are there tears somewhere.
Hiding beneath that heart there?
Or is it cracked and too dry,
Like the earth under the bright sky?

Fear,hope and love evaporated.
Condensed to those created
Until the blood becomes thick
And the heart becomes sick

O God flood me with the rain
So that I may shower my veins
And let my frail heart pumps out
Those tears I cant live without

For my heart is a wilting plant
Holding on to the fence I can't
Need the rain to circulate in my stem
So that I may reach the sun once again.

For the third time, I had a really nice dream where a guy took my hand and make me feel happy. He make me feel like I am the most precious thing in this world. I dream of him sitting beside me, and just hold me hand, without letting it go and it was just nice.

Raised your words, not voice.
It is rain that grows flowers,
not thunder.

I am lunatic,
My life's not static,
Like most of us are,
I'm just above par,
In the league of savants,
With imaginary havens,
Wake up in the afternoon,
From my delusional honeymoon.

You were mine to lose,
Now I'm missing the sound of your heart beating.

How sad is it to fall in love with words instead of actions, to break over letters and drown in a body of water that doesn't exist.

When we started letting ,
silence do the talking,
is when i realize how deaf
I became to my heart's cry for freedom.

You deserve a crown,
a kingdom of flowers away from the ******* and a pair of wings to fly - whenever you feel like escaping from it all.

I have been down and lost
for days
Glad i found you on the way.

I let you in my brain
Using your black magic on me.

From that day onwards
I felt like I have lost my only past
Not only that
I know I have lost my future path
That I've been seeing for so long
Living in for so long
Its not easy to take these things you know

I know you have planned out a better future for me
I know you have written down years of brighter days for me
I know you love me
as much as you do to the others
who are now free little bees
I know you love me more than I love me.

Everyday i pray and pray for God to give me what I want,
that I've been working so hard
I can't fathom why others can go ahead,
And leave me behind instead,
I just don't want to do this anymore.

EverydayI wish for my fate today would be okay,
I also hoped that my motivation
doesn't go astray
I couldnt fathom why others can play
Yet I am here,am here to stay
I just don't want to do this anymore

Ai give me strength
Please give me strength

Distract ourselves from the hell, that we known well, doesn't matter when it ends,as long as we have something to run from than have our little time unspent.

Its not time well spent,
Till the days we repent.