I  THOUHT  I  WAS  STRONG, I  THOUGHT  I  WAS  READY  TO LET  GO BUT  THE  BOND  THAT WE  HAD, DENIES    PART  OF  ME  TO LET  GO ,A  PART OF  ME  BLAMES  I  FOR  NOT  KEEPING  YOU  SAFE .
YOU,THE  ACTIVE  LIGHT  THAT  TURNED  MY  NIGHTS  INTO A  DAY YOU,THE  LIGHT  THAT  BRIGHTENS  MY  DARKEST  NIGHTS .
LIKE  A  DRUG  U  MADE  ME  INSANE I  GOT  SO ADDICTED  I  CANT  CUT  YOU  OFF  MY MIND .I  BELIEVE  ITS  AMAIZING  HOW  I’VE  STAYED  SO  SANE BUT  THE  TEARS  IN  MY HEART, NOBODY  CANT SEE
I  DON’T  ACT  THIS  WAY BECAUSE  I  AM  SO ASHAMED ,I  ACT  THIS  WAY  BECAUSE  I  LOST A  PART OF  ME
YOU  HIT  ME  LIKE  A  THUNDER  AND  DISSAPEARED  LIKE  A  SMOKE­ AND  MY  STRENGTH WILL FOREVER  HEAL  ME. A  PART OF  ME  IS  SO  EMPTY EVEN  NOW  I  HAVE  NOT LET ALL  MY  TEARS  OUT IT  HAPPENED  THE  DAY  I  FELT  YOU  MOVE   BUT  ALL  OF  THE  SUDDEN  YOU  WERE  SO  SILENT

Sitting all alone watching this lifeless pictures of you
Hoping that they will came alive and talk to me
Hoping that they will hold me tight
I Watch my facebook page hoping that i can see the latest photo of you
I set down and asked myself that why is this world so big?
Why do we have to stay a million miles away from each other
I just left your arms hours ago but i am missing you already
I miss your laughter and the sound of your voice
The look in your eyes and the taste of your lips
My bed is full of tears and i understand that i cry because i miss you
I wish i could create my own world
a world that is going to be just you and i
You and i alone in each other’s arms
I think of you every breath i take
I know that i can see your face when we video call,
But its really not the same ,i need you closer
My tears are falling down as i write this ,all you need to know is,
I cry because i miss you

little girl , you have been struggling for so long.
you , the girl so brave but lonely.
where are they now? the once who used to put
a smile on your face.
are they ever going to return just to say hi?
you cry so much at night and even thought
of turning back the hands of time.
you just wish u had wings so that
you can fly to a different world.
everything you do or try just don't work.
you tried to take your own life
but god just kept you alive.
every single day you drop a tear thinking that they will come back to wipe away your tears,
but they are gone now, they are both gone.
that goodbyes that you said was forever.

Love can sometimes be pain
Love can make you lose hope
Love can be a disappointment
Love can make you break down
When our hearts are bleeding so deeply, with no one to confide
And with no place to hide our tears, love might be the reason we break down.
But the minute you fine that one true special somebody, all of the sudden love becomes a beautiful thing
Love becomes worth fighting for,
Love would be the sweetest dream you wish never to wake up from,
Love becomes a rose that grows in the most beautiful garden,
Love becomes a treasure; love becomes a melody that sweetens the heart
No matter what love make us see
No matter what pain we go through, there is a melody to pull us through,
A melody that touches our hearts inside and heals our bleeding wounds

You found my heart in little pieces,
you found my soul abandoned,
and you slowly came into my life and collected my broken heart and fixed it together piece by piece ,you made me burn all my past and gave me an ever lasting smile,you never walk away,
you are always there to take care of me,
you collected me off the ground when i was down and you restored my faith,you never walk away ,you make me happy piece by piece,your love is so kind,you take care of me cause you love me,
i will never leave you abandoned cause you heal my heart,
no matter how far you are,
no matter the hundred miles i travel to see you
no matter the challenges we came across,
but forever we are going to be together.in your arms am doing so much better

I watched my self push you away
I thought it was the right thing to do
I just didn't realise it will hurt this much
Tears of a broken heart are now all over my face,
Not forgetting my bleeding heart
I ask my self a thousand times,
Why did I push you away??
Each morning I open my eyes,I think of old memories,
You and I growing up together, chasing those little flies
In the streets.
I still need the lost friendship back,I want us to fix that bond
that no body could break before,but deep inside I know I should let go.the thought that I pushed you away,hunts me in my dreams too.my world is falling apart without you,if only I could handle this and bear to just hide my tears and say a word,I would honestly say,I lost a sister

my life was cut too deep and left me hurting
the love i had hoped for turned into little peaces
the dreams i held so tight lost their meaning
the face that used to be dry had tears
the heart that used to smile was bleeding
never knew if i could ever find heeling
not till that day god sent me an angle
he came into my life and wiped away all my sorrows
showed me the meaning of my dreams
treated my heart like it was made out of glass that he never wanted to break
i began to see the light that i could not find in the dark
i found the way that i was looking for
he held my hand and lifted my eyes and made me see that my sorrows are over.he became my helper in every high and lows i was going through.
whispered in my ears and said you are gonna make it.my time with him is amazing .now i began to realize that he was always there but waiting to be found .i cant believe that i found you and everything had its meaning

Never have i thought that i could sooner experience it.
The pain that gets through you.
The pain that is like a scar that never fades.
It comes like a thunder that is so unbearable,
Straight through the heart and leaves you torn apart.
The pain that leaves your eyes filled with tears,
And you would even ask yourself that,why all this misery
It left me devastated and so lonely.
I tried to smile but no one could see me breaking.
I tried to breath yet the pain suffocates me.
But sooner i realized that it is not the end,
It is only the path that leads to success and yet so painful

I set down and wondered
why always me ? why is it always
me that has to be alone
Is it just the thoughts running in my mind,
why do I always feel this bad about my self
Every time I walk past them
I see them laughing right in my eyes
Is it just the thought I have

I wish to become so invisible
A girl who is never to be seen
Each thought that I have
leaves me feeling shattered
It has became a daily illusion
I tried to stop it,but  yet I manage to
rise it up again, am I different?

to my surprise i keep on putting the thoughts
on paper , but yet I still cant shut it out