An Explosion Of Bad Choices, Of Reckless Thoughts
Stem From My Own Disregard to My Own Safety
My Inability To Think To The Future, To Understand
That My Decsions Affect Things Completely Unrelated

A Life Left In Ruins, Another Crumbling To Nothing
Breaking Down The Supports Of My Friends Lives
Accidental, Inconsiderate, Thoughtlessness. Stupid.
Ruination Follows In My Wake, Ripping Apart
Everything That Was Built For Me, Burning.

To Think I Break And Burn My Bridges
Is A Folly To Behold, To Think I'd Leave Myself
Defenceless, With Nothing TO Live On, With.
Instead I Loosen Bolts, Nuts And Screws, Every Now
And Then, If A Bridge Is To Be Lost, One Bolt Is All It Takes.

Time To Meet My Seven Other Selves...

With Me, Everything Is Happy, Joyful And Fun
But, Then Again, Me? Not The Only One
There Are More Than Me, There's Myself
Myself? Not Such A Happy Chappy

Myself Is A Depressed, Sad, Sorry Excuse For Split Personality
There Is Also Him, Him Thinks Logically, And Has Not One Other Emotion
Him, Is Deadly Cold, Not Meaning To Be, Its Just How Him Works
And What About He, He Is Very Violent, Angry, Full Of Ferocious Rage
He Isn't Angry At Any Particular Thing, He Is Kind Of Just Angry At Everything

Have You Heard Of Mr, Mr Is Alittle Different, Just Alot Crazy, Inverted And Insane
Mr's Thought Patterns Are What You Wouldn't Call Sane, He Is Unusual
Mr Should Be In A Mental Institute, If Only, Mr Is At Odds With Him, The Logical Thinker
And Best Buddies With Mister, Mister Is A Kind, Caring, Down To Earth, Lovely Personality
Mister Makes Everyone Feel Wanted, Mister Makes People Feel Special, Wanted.

Now Master, Not Exactly Happy, Nor Sad, Nor Angry, Logical, Insane, Or Kind.
Master Is Kind Of A Meeting Ground For All The Other Personalities. A Mixture Of Them All
But At The Same Time, None Of Them, I Guess Master Is The Most Normal Of The Seven
The Common Controller. It Takes Alot To Bring The Others Out, Except Mr, Mr Shows As Much As Master

So Now You Know, Do You Think I Need Help.
Master Doesn't, Mister Does, Mr Doesn't Want To, He Is Angry At The Mere Suggestion Of It, Him Thinks It's The Logical Thing To Do, Myself Is Too Sad To Do Anything, And Me Is Too Happy To Need Help.

Not One Of Them Asked I, The One Who Sits Back Watching The Other Seven, Never In Control, But Always Watching.

Do I Want Help??

Do I??

Come Here Dear, Let Me Tell You The Story, From Whence You Came
Years Ago, They Met, Love at First Sight, Hug And Kisses, Cuddles And More
Night After Night, Day After Day, Love Filled Nights, Hate Filled Days

Hospitals And Test, Tears Did Fall, But Wait Child There Is More
Blood Was Taken, Hormones Rose, Friendships Shattered, So Much More
Counsellors Did Talk, At, Not Too, Weeping At Night, Hugs Were Few

She Has A Friend, Queer As Can Be, He Loved Her Alot, Together She's Free
He Wanted To Make Her Laugh, Thoughts Were Heavy, She Needed To ****
So I Thought To My Self, What My Own Talents Were, And I Wrote These, I Concur

Black Versing White
Pale Marble, Veined With Gold, Beauty & Light
Smoky Onyx, Pulsing Charcoal, Ash & Soot
Battling Since The Beginning Of Time
Good Verse Evil, Yin & Yang, Light & Dark

Battling, Time With Out End
Shown In A Million Ways
Woman Verse Man, Black Verse White, Heaven & Hell
Always Seeing Things Either Good Or Bad, Black Or White

Then There Is Gray, Neither Good Nor Bad, Neither Chaos Nor Order
Named By Many Names, Limbo, In-Between, Plane Of Spirits, Neutral
Not Good, Not Order, Not Heaven, Not Bad, Not Chaos, Not Hell
Gray, See The World In Many Shades Of Limbo, Black, White & Gray

This Is Something That Has Long Been Coming
It Had Too Have Happened Eventually
This Is Not Something You Can Stop
It Has Too Come Out Or Else

Anger, Vibrant, Sharp And Harsh
Sadness, Slow, Liquid And Flat
Pain, Bright, Acute And Rough
Joy, Brilliant, Soft And Smooth

The Insanity I Feel, The Craziness Of My Days
The Pressure Of The World, Onto My Weak Shoulders
Buckling Under The Weight Of The Mountain
I Only Wish For The Feather, To Shift Only The Feather

Writing Is A Way Of Release, A World Away From Reality
Shifting Thought, Spilt Blood On The Yellowed Pages
Browned, Once Red, The Reek Of Copper, The Taste Of Fear
Blazing And Flaring, Shining Bright, Shadowed Door

Duty, Heavier Than A Mountain. Death, Lighter Than A Feather
Duty, The Duty To Care For Those In "Need", Helping Those Who Ask
No Matter To My Own Thoughts, On These Yellow Pages, Red On White
Ask Me For Help, And Thou Shalt Receive, It Is My Nature, To Help Those in "Need"

My Mountain Feels Heavy, So Very Heavy, My Shoulders Straining With The Weight
Burning Migraine, Weeks Now, Many Long Arduous Weeks, But Will I Stop?
No I Will Not Put Down The Mountain, It Is There Forever More, Though All I Wish
Is Too Shift That Deadly Feather, Let This White, Shining Feather Fall From My Broken Shoulders

I Sketch This Mountain, Upon My Yellowing Pages, Years Of Pages, All Yellowed With Age, Written Agony
Don't Burn These Pages, Don't Rip These Words, These Thoughts Are My Legacy, My Own Memoirs
Not Much Joy, A Small Amount, That Will Grow To Be Crushed Underfoot But Those I Have Loved, Love, And Will Love
Crushed Heart And Soul, My Spirit Bearing A Mountain, With A Feather On Top, The Waiting, The Impatience, The Feather Quivers

Vastly Different Plain
Melting In The Rain
Bitter Sweet Tears
Finally My Vision Clears

To See My Pain And Destruction
What Has Been Created
By My Own Selfish Foolishness
Sour Taste Coating Thy Tongue

Don't Touch My Vaulted Heart
Locked Tight, From The Start
Unlocked To Be Destroyed
Locked In Diamond, Now Moored

Shut Away Out Of Sight
To Ignore The Vicious Blight
Lighted By The Darkness
Shadowed By The Bleakness

Arachnids, Spiders, Creepy Crawlies
Bite, Bite Venoms, Fast Pulse
Fear, Agony, Spinning Web
Eight Glassy Black Eyes

Evil Creature, Monstrous Insect
Crush, Squash, No Guilt
Evil, Horror, Bad Thing
**** Them, Destroy, Fear

Shining Silver Thread
Created From Nothing
Spun Around A Post
Horribly Sticky

Horror In My Eyes
Fear And Panic
Death To The Arachnids
Bad Spider, Fear.

Arachnaphobia
Horrible, Heart Stopping
Sweaty Palms, Panicked Scream
Spiders, Fear, Arachnids