i wish my name was
matilda or something that
sounded beautiful when said by
a starbucks barista or
a boy with rustled brown hair
who loved me

if my name were
matilda maybe i would be
someone better who
didnt hurt people who cared about her
and didnt lie about
how they really felt

i wish my name was
matilda because i have already
tarnished the name that i was
supposed to make great and be proud of
my name isnt matilda
but i wish it was

it is so hard not falling in love with someone
when they are laughing

at their most vulnerable
tears streaming down their face
quick breaths
eyes alive and bright

i dare you to try and not fall in love with someone
when they are laughing

you want to laugh with them
you want to make them laugh
anything to make them look like that

i can guarantee that
you will fall in love with someone
when they are laughing

he looked at me like
there were stars in my eyes
and he wished on them whenever
the edges wrinkled with laughter

he listened to me like
there were flowers in my words
and he picked them all and put them
in a vase in his bedroom

he looked at me like
there was love in his heart
and he said that it was too much
for him to handle

so he flew away