See. It's that smile of yours.
******* smile.
It's all it takes for my shattered heart
To collide and rebuild it's self
Piece by piece
Painted red
Hot and Alive
You take me places
To lands of greatness
See, I ******* despise you,
You give me hope
That burns me
I begin to wonder and dream
I see,
The blindness fades as the curtains rise
I hide behind the sunlight
I look into the moonlight
My curls fall around my shoulders
As you quietly count the round spirals
It's unbelievable
What your eyes can do
You strip me
With your eyes
Quietly and slowly
Afraid of my reaction to your touch
You whisper the words I yearn to hear
As you stare into my eyes
At that moment
I feel
Connected
To you
I experience your heartache as I
Heal your wounds
I dance to your laughter
As you sing
Your vibrant tunes
I touch the inside of your heart as you touch the inside of mine
And at that moment, we are invincible
We create force
With emotion
So deep so strong
So beautiful
Your bushy eyebrows, your boyish smile
Drawing the most beautiful dimples
Chocolaty brown,
Your eyes are Chocolaty brown
I can study your face for hours and hours
I can write a thousand words
But, it'll never be enogh
I'm sure there'll be a thousand more to come

It stopped.
The heartfelt sobbing stopped.
But the pain,
It remained
The regret was raw
I feel you touching me
I feel the tips of your fingers drawing lines
Over my tear filled eyes
You babe,
Were my everything
The sun that burned me
the pain that armed me
the sadness that ruled me
the moon that doomed me
you babe, neglected me
while I worshipped
you
I accepted your harshness
'Cause it closed the distance
Between us
I accepted your demands
Well, at least I get to kiss your hands
I felt sick
Disgusted by my strong one sided emotions
Me, and me
Loving you and your
******* ego

I fall
And I think, I imagine, and I wonder
What life could be like, if you were my thunder
My lightning and the rain shower, after
You, caressing my  sadness
Slowly washing all the madness away
I wonder as I stare at the sparkling stars, painted into the black sky
they are nothing,
compared to the sparkle in your eyes

the fire burns inside me
the  need to see you
the need to read your face
I want to listen to your deep thoughts
Dive, into the center of your being
Burn till my fires light the universe

Feel you, touch your cheeks
I want to dance, to the rhythm
Of your heart

Be with you
That is all
I ever wished for
All I ever asked
For
All I ever wanted
Was
This

Too much. I can’t take this any longer. Too much. I need to leave.
Please help me.
Hearing your own mother tell you that she wants to take her own life away.
Depression.
Depression is contagious.
I can’t take this.
Throw me out.
Let me fly.
Let me strip my sadness away.
Let me breath the free air.
Let me dye my hair blue.
Let me pierce my belly.
Give me away
Unlock my soul
Let me live alone
Give me peace of mind
Give me my emotions back
Give me happiness
Give me my innocence
Give me my smile
Stop trying to help me, for you make everthing worse
I cry at night
Every time  you try to explain yourself
Stop it
Stop it, please