Why did I ever love you
What is there to love?
Going to sleep, feeling snubbed?
What about the criticism about how I spend my money?
You think you can control me, you got another thing coming honey.
Manipulating me with lavish gifts, loving words and poems.
Thinking I'm stupid enough to not see our relationship is broken?
Throwing a fit when you don't get your way,
Ignoring my needs every single day.
Denying me of the love I crave,
You are slowly digging my early grave.
Shattering my self esteem seems to be your intent,
When I try to say anything, you always dissent.
My words don't matter, I am worthless,
Still your tirade continues, you are merciless.
Please let me go and stop this oppression,
Time to allow someone else the pleasure of this succession.

Gone is the love
Which held us together
Gone is the glue
That bonded us forever
Too many words have been exchanged
My heart can't take any more
My soul is dead inside
How did this become so deranged?
The enamor faded from your eyes
No longer do I have my soul mate
Tuning me out with the radio
Stifling my heart-wrenching cries
Insults fly at me from every direction
Blindsided in the most unthinkable way
So numb inside that I don't know if I am alive
Praying so deeply for a resurrection
Wanting to go back in time
Erase all the memories and all the pain
Go back and prevent our first meeting
Wishing I never had known this love that was once mine

I am dead inside
You killed me slowly
Drained my body
Broke my heart
And buried my soul
Every fiber of my being deadened
Nerves numb
Heart barely beating
Now I am dead.

Words draw blood like a knife
Piercing my heart, causing endless strife
The agony I'm in seems to never end
Worried my shattered heart will never mend
Tears fall on deaf ears
No one to allay my fears
When will you see the hurt you've caused
Was never at all my fault?

Hurtful words come in every direction
No longer is anything left to my discretion
How could this happen, how could this be?
How could my prince betray me?
The love in my heart waxes and wanes
But the incessant pain still remains
Letting go of hope, facing the truth
It never was me, it was always you.

Waiting for a love to fill up my senses
Strong enough to break down my defenses
A feeling of complete and utter bliss
Unwaning passion enveloped in every kiss
Feeling complete, like I'm a full person
Nothing can make our relationship worsen
The two of us and no one else
A feeling that I have never felt
A bond so strong no one can break
This meeting wasn't accident; it was fate
Gentle words and selfless actions
Nothing less than a loving reaction
The highest level of respect
Love so precious, it can't be wrecked
Anything in the world I would do to keep
The angel who protects me and makes my heart leap

Weak, empty, miserable
That's what everyone sees
If only they just took the time
To see that isn't me.....



Judgements abound disquiet my voice
If only they knew this isn't my choice
Everyone's appraisals overwhelm my senses
At the ready to prepare my defenses
Combative and ill-tempered is my demeanor
Making everything all the bit keener
So much stirring underneath the exterior,
But you can't see it because you feel superior