My head is a picture book novel.
The words and images my mind’s
camera collects every day
have been shaping me
since I’ve been very small,
so that I use phrases from books
I read when I was three,
and I cry at songs
that are meant to be happy.
My actions are reactions
I’ve learned to use
from watching my parents talk
on the phone
or from a clip of a movie
I scrolled past while surfing channels,
or hearing lyrics on the radio
that tried to make a point.
My head is a picture book novel,
but sometimes, even I skim
past the words.
My heart is a palette of colours.
Every person I’ve come across
has made their mark -
be it the sloppy spattering of indigo
from the girl I bumped into in the hall,
or the delicate transition
from amber to scarlet
from him with his uneven smile.
I’d like to think that
I leave everyone’s heart
more beautiful than I found it,
but I know that that’s not true.
I know that sometimes
I forget to apologize,
so I never remove the stains
of grey and charcoal
that I perhaps didn’t accidentally leave.
Maybe in my quest to be a
better person, I should try
to remember to paint over
work I wouldn’t want myself
to be remembered by.
My heart is a palette of colours.
But right now, I wouldn’t
hang myself on a wall.