When the sun goes down, the night emerges
in a blink of an eye, everything changes.
Happy mornings, Lonely nights
how I wish I could go back.

To the day where it began.
When everything was fun and games.
When the nights lasted for hours
because we were under each others powers.

You kissed my cheek, but really it was my heart.
The touch of you felt complete.
It was the end yet a new start.
When I closed my eyes, my heart skipped a beat.

The saying, "You don't know what you have til' it's gone"
Is a saying I will forever depend on
because I now know what it means to feel alone.

Now you are gone
Like a cold winter night
Wanting to hold you tight in my arms
and tell you, I miss you

But you're gone
This I know.
Nothing will be the same
It's just a hollow feeling left inside.

All there is left to do is hope that life brings us back to each other,
to never fall out of love.
To always love each other
like the first night where it all started
& you held me
to never let me go.

The day will come...
They day when I will find my own frog.
To kiss, to hold, caress, to behold.

The day will come...
The day that I will wake up to a beautiful creature before me.
To observe, to learn, to live.

The day will come...
The day when I get to kiss my own personal frog.
The sweet, soft, lovely lips.

The day will come...
The day when I walk down the isle to meet you.
The two most beautiful phrases.

I do and Til death do us Part.

And when that day comes, I will be strong.
I will beautiful, inside and out.
I will never let go.

That day is taking too long.

How I long to hold you. To kiss you. To hug you.
To feel you and love you.

But the more I wait, the more special you seem to me.
I know that God is preparing you just like I want you to be.
I know you will be the BEST!
Because the Best Waits,
My own little frog.

Almost family
no longer anything..

I ask myself the same question everyday,
Will we ever be okay again?

So hard to believe that you were in my life for so long.
Four years felt like the wind, endless..
So fast yet so slow
Like a dream, deep yet short.

Loving you was a feeling that taught me a lesson.
A lesson i'll never forget. A lesson leaving me confused.
A brake up so strange and painless yet full of tears and emptiness.

Four months have passed...
We look at each other like we have never met before.
Speak like we have never spoken.

We are strangers full of memories.
A treasure without gold
A genie without the bottle

The thought of never having you in my life again
is a scary thought... yet it is closure.

Today I heard a song,
Memories flushed back, like streaming water from a river.
One song....
That's all it took.

Now I find myself writing poems about you.
Words on a page that will never get to you.

Pointless. Pointless. Words.

I want to start this off by saying, the
famous saying.. "Everything happens for a reason."

Fifteen years old is a young age to start dating.
I can now tell, four years later, why my parents wanted me to wait to start dating.
Dating takes time, commitment, and consideration.
Being in a serious relationship for four years, living life as if it was a fairytale.
High School sweethearts, continuing life after high school into college, together.
It was a fairytale, I didn't not I was living.

In a matter of a year, life changes, it takes an intense turn, an illegal U-turn.
Nothing is the same. Everything is erased. Everything is taken away.

Not having the one person in my life that I thought I would marry, is sad.
Although it's sad, I cry tears of joy.
Because It is a lesson taught, a memory well learned, an unforgettable experience
that life offered me.

Yet, at the same time it feels as though I have lost someone very closed to me.
Like you passed away, yet you're standing in front of me.
Like I have never met you, yet I know your whole life.

Life, up to this point has opened up a new chapter.
Well, that's an understatement, more like a whole new book.
A book in a completely different genre.

The storm has passed, and I am not afraid of moving on.

New chapter, new apartment, new city, new friends, new people.
God, God is the reason that life happens.
He has written my story from beginning to end and i'm experiencing what is
suppose to happen,
step by step
day by day
month to month
Year to Year
Everything happens so that better things can happen.

Up to this point...

Life has taken an illegal U-turn.
A U-turn worth taking.
A U-turn that has only brought better things in life.

*Everything happens for a reason

Look in the mirror,
what do you see?
A beautiful face.
A beautiful smile.

Look in the mirror,
What do you see?
A beautiful soul.
A beautiful mind.

Look in the mirror,
Every minute, every hour, everyday.
Tell yourself,

I am a beautiful person.
I need no makeup,
no boy
Just me.

And see how your world changes from
negative to positive
from black to white
from dry to paradise.

Look in the mirror,
What do you see?
*A beautiful creature