Emotionally pushed, off the metaphorical cliff.

I always thought,
That we were inevitable,
But Adam and Eve,
Is a story older than time,
And who am I,
To re-write history.

I never had you
Yet I lost you

I will never have you
Yet I still want you

i regret every word
that i have ever said
except the ones
that made you smile.

I wanted to drown
in rivers of poison
but i found myself
drowning in hands
a boy
who doesn't know me
his hands were drugs
to my body
but not to my broken
beaten heart

i tried to write down
exactly how i felt
to explain out loud
why i am in pieces
because you had asked me
once again
to open myself up
and spill myself out
onto unwilling hands
but the words don't exist
and the page will remain blank
just like my heart
and just like my head