Guilt it swallows you whole until there's nothing else
It keeps you up and holds you down
And never lets you forget  
The worst feeling ever
It eats away at my mind until all that's left is.....
Guilt

Looking back on life all the decisions I've made
The crazy stupid life changing decisions
I have no regrets.

But do they know how
to craft fiction? Do
they know how to spin lies?

His eyes swear forever,
flatter with vows of only
me. But are they empty promises?

I stare into his eyes as
into a crystal ball but
I cannot find forever,

movies of yesterday
a sketchbook of today,
dreams of a shared tomorrow.

His eyes whisper secrets.
But are they truths of fairy tales?
I wonder if he even knows.

The courage to jump
the brink, let myself fall
beyond the precipice
most people call life.
I've grown tired of
stumbling, skinning
my knees. If flight is
possible without
the sting of growing
wings, let me fly
way, above the madness
to a place where
there is nothing to gamble
but another go round
And, win or lose there
is a chance at something after
the penultimate decision.
Because life, and maybe
death, will always  be
a gamble after all

Cause your a hard soul to save with an ocean in the way but I'll swim around it.