I want to write a poem about him
About how absolutely perfect he is
About how his smile makes me melt
And every time I see him time stands still

But I can't

People who read could never understand
The most painful time without him
Is the week after he leaves me
And the three days before he returns
Everything in between is only a little less excruciating

I just can't

His beauty really surpasses all others:
Soft hair, the color of a morning sunrise
Eyes the color of a blue bird's egg
A body chiseled by gods

How can I?

The way he talks is almost foreign
Never have I met a more intelligent person
To be treated like an equal is refreshing
He doesn't know he is terrific, perfect, stunning.

I won't ever do him justice.

Where would you like to meet?
the library
Really? Okay... When?
1:00, unless you want to get lunch before
Lunch? Nah, I'm good... I... don't... eat...
well I mean, yeah totally, cool
yeah.
totally.
cool.
I mean, we can do whatever.
No yeah, library, perfect place for a date.
Yup, You don't know how to propose a lunch date.
Kay. See you then
bye sweet

I love that about you.
I crave these conversations,
I know they make you blush.
They make me smile.
You wanted this date to be perfect.
And so you chose a library.
Chose the place you would be most cozy.
Chose the place where we had our first kiss.
Yes, I remembered. How could I forget.
See you then, my socially-awkward, beautiful boy.

Are we not together you and I?
Should we share our affection in private?
Safe from the piercing daggers
Hidden from the wandering eyes

Never had I felt more alone
That moment when you vanished
And all that was left
Was a lingering scent of longing

Two weeks couldn't come faster
Counting down the days to bliss
The reverse blastoff that slows
To a snales pace, a dead crawl

All I ever wanted was you
Only you, substitutes be ******
No more mindless loves, afterall
Are we not together, you and I?

It wrapped itself around me when the lights went out
And took my form, all my shapes
The way you did

It protected me from any monsters below
And made everything safe and sound
The way you did

It kept me warm when the cold air got me
It listened to my screams of angst
It caught me when I fell down
And never failed to abide this calling

Just the way you did

When you were away
I lay my tired body on half the bed
Going through this whole cycle
Wondering if you too were being
Warmed,
Guarded,
Comforted.

This down feather blanket isn't you
It is a new friend
My friend
No one else's

The way you said
You were no one else's