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3.5k · May 2013
Starfish
Raquel Cheri May 2013
I cannot pinpoint the exact moment that it happened.
That monumental moment when I completely and totally
allowed myself to fall
for you.

I fell hard, uncoordinated and bruised
I crash landed into your arms
and sank into the clouds of your love.

It was too much to absorb at once
so I let some of it just float around me
hoping I could save this love
and let it thrive upon itself

so that maybe
just this once
it would last.
1.9k · Oct 2011
Ignorance
Raquel Cheri Oct 2011
How does one overcompensate
For the incompetence of a nation?

No compromise for the masses
undeniably *stuck in ruts
of habit
These days Ive seen and see
We're all craving harmony
With no equitable solution
To take the race out of the face
It's just accumulative corruption
Apprehensive assimilation
Aggression stirring underneath
A stone passive shade of sentience

Now say we might anticipate
The fantasizing fringe of youth
Where we will conquer or be conquered
By depravic spurring **truth
1.6k · Nov 2013
This poem is about owls
Raquel Cheri Nov 2013
To
know love
is to be certain that
our locked gaze holds an intangible truth that words could never do justice.
The same way your stable palm
cupping my cheek makes the shadows
dance for more sunshine.

My heart finds it difficult
to make a logical appeal to my brain,
because the way you look at me is
unexplainable,
the way I feel when you squeeze my thigh is
irrational,
and the way we love is
enigmatic

To know with certainty
is to get lost in your eyes and be joyfully surprised that you always find me.
To love is to find felicity
in our mutual surrender to our greatest strength and weakness in each other.
To certainly know love is to discover
the simple satisfaction of your head in my lap,
my hands in your hair and our hearts elated
in a moment of peace.

To know
love certainly is
to feel
the sting of truth and appreciate it.

For without this truth
our locked gaze would not break down walls
that were built over years of pain
preceding this newfound freedom in love
Free to learn and grow without the fear of abandonment or rejection.

What is love if it is not everything
you despise and everything you need
compacted into one ridiculously handsome person with the power to destroy you....
but never could and never would.
For such destruction might
collapse mountains around the world.
Clouds would fall from the sky
Trees would split into two and then
Owls
couldn't perch on branches
to watch over me and you.

To know love is to be intelligently ignorant
To accept the inevitable torment of an equal
Yet refusing to let eachother go.

and

Certainly love
is never certain

But choosing to know love is
certainly, to live
1.4k · Oct 2011
Nomad
Raquel Cheri Oct 2011
Insanity is a funny thing. It's deep inside your soul
a corruption that manifests until the day you become whole
so many adjectives to describe a girl who lives inside her heart
a girl who wanted nothing more then a smile or kind remark.
a girl who did her best to love everyone from the start.
never comprehending the negativity that was returned
not seeing all the variables that work to make the world so cold
a world where hearts are cracking, its a natural disaster.
uncommon for the girl who dwells in the heart that is her master.
but even for a heart so strong the world is stronger still
hits from every angle were bound to break her will
and through all the despair and pain, that applaud while she burns
An entertaining show, but some still want their money returned
Its the system of our kind to build and break our neighbors
and she's breathing shallow breaths, pleading for a favor
anyone to help her, someone to be kind and care
familiar faces avoid her eyes, noses turned in the air
and as her knees buckle, face hits the pavement
through teary eyes of lost self worth, she sees distant movement
familiar shoes approaching, now strong arms pull her off the floor.
carrying her to safety, where she'd be hurt no more.
she knows this scent, seen these scarred up hands.
She looks in his eyes and see's her heart in this man
remembering all the things that used to make her smile
fond memories with this man, from when he was a child
a gust of wind makes her shiver, but in these arms she's whole
It's recognition of the sanity in a reflection of her soul.
1.4k · Oct 2012
Ethereal
Raquel Cheri Oct 2012
Thinking of ways
to sift through days
in the corner of your atmosphere,
with the shadow of your sentiment,
through dawning mist
upon my soul.
1.1k · Oct 2011
Harvest
Raquel Cheri Oct 2011
Words tossed
landing in mind fields
Thoughts perceptions
grow like weeds
Water swaying turmoil
nurturing seeds
Harvesting our love
holding up shields
simply waiting
wanting to give our souls freely
Deflecting
Neglecting
Tending to wounds
The memoirs of agonizing gullibility
Like razor blades to my brain
You take away the pain
Mere words could not explain.
Laughter holds all meaning
To this love lust never fleeting
Repaired damage thriving surely
Through the plains of time
1.0k · Dec 2013
Cotton Candy Contrast
Raquel Cheri Dec 2013
It's quiet for a split second
in my mind as my thoughts glitch.
replay over and over and over
that moment i can't erase for good.
suppress it.
drown it.
forget.

but it lives
simply to haunt me
as i walk down the hall
staring blankly at the blinking
exit sign

just want to get out
maybe if i get out
i can breathe
fresh air with no stench
of sweat and ***

the residue of ****** fluids.
have to get out.
have to breathe.
have to forget.

the exit sign stops blinking.
my legs stop moving.
I feel nothing but the lump
rising and choking me.
i gag on the thought
and hurl a pretty swirl
of colorful candy
onto the rug.

goodbye Casanova.
957 · Oct 2011
Forward (Haiku)
Raquel Cheri Oct 2011
Real life would create
fairytales so that we might
long for the journey.
950 · Nov 2013
Checkmate
Raquel Cheri Nov 2013
delicate aggression
tender abrasion
your words caress
like a soft knife
your lips warm
and smooth like ice
eyes dilate; enchanted
and we all fall down

red roses and blue jays
ringing, singing in my ears
violent shrills in a foreign tongue
swept tile after ashes of fun
the friction of bare skin burns the rug
brows furrow, the battles won
still, you wish it could all
be undone
944 · Oct 2012
Static Rape
Raquel Cheri Oct 2012
A painful blend of suffering
Tastes good with a side of amnesia
Don’t feel what you don’t remember
And grasping at the past gets blurry
Like trying to touch a ghost
You can’t.
No.
But it touches you
When it wants to.


Like static in your mind
It drowns out noises,
makes for fuzzy moments
Flashes of color
Distinct images, with no clear order
No resolve. No unity
Nothing sacred in this rotting flesh
Degraded, humiliated
Pull me by my leash and tighten up my collar
You think you own me?
Like I’m your pet? Your mother.
You’ve never met another
who does what I can do.
Try to put me in your box
Don’t comprehend when I’m ticked off
My silence speaking volumes
You never listen.
862 · Nov 2013
3 Extremities
Raquel Cheri Nov 2013
There are three very different extremes from which my story could be told.

1.) I am the antagonist
2.) I am the protagonist
3.) I am the witness

The truth is, I cannot pick just one of these extremes because all are true.

I am the antagonist who maliciously drives those around to the point of madness. With bitter contempt I lurk in shadows around corners waiting for victims to fall prey to my traps, and when I’ve finally spun my web of malevolence; tightly to the point of suffocation, I laugh in the most polluted form of victory and self-destruction.

I am the protagonist who, with the best of intentions, still clumsily trips into danger from time to time. Naïve but good willed, my heroic altruism persists! I cannot give up on the world lest my grave cradles me. I must get to the bottom of this chaos, this maddening web of malevolence, if it’s the last thing I do. Everything depends on it.

I am the witness who stands idly by while everyone and everything bursts into lively fire or burns with the fury of death. I am the warm humid breeze on a hot summer’s day; unwelcome. I am water droplets on dry land; necessary.
840 · Oct 2011
Abrasion
Raquel Cheri Oct 2011
Boundaries vanish in the night sky
Begetting personal aims
Each sunset relative by possession
Dreams should not be tamed.

I feel as if I’m mourning you
When I should be rejoicing
Your presence opens up ideals
I had given up on voicing.

I’d been wishing on infinity
to reveal one of your stature.
Wouldn’t have fathomed a meeting like ours
to free fall my soul’s disaster.

Though you resonate my fury,
With the absence guaranteed;
Also dimming down my worries
wanting you is unfathomable greed.

Deprivation, fabrication.
Knowing we can’t be
Flutters optimism out and in
Through dreams we waking flee.

no words needed to sustain
intensity roots in growing pain
we decompose set notions.
we narrate all motions

to call upon occasion
my bitter sweet abrasion.
827 · Oct 2011
Steam
Raquel Cheri Oct 2011
Ice fury moves steam
drip down foggy windows like
Liquid searing truth
757 · Nov 2011
Box of Lies
Raquel Cheri Nov 2011
Sliver slice emotional ties

Inhabiting a box of lies

drifting farther; farther from you

all of which I knew to be true.

morphing mystic synergies

and energies; synthetic

seeing is believing

the constant tug of our desires

time streams karmic choices

Dust collecting on the wires

of corruption much like rust

on a silver slicing sword

You want to scrape this blade clean

While I occupy a maze

of free lance opposition

Feed my needing to be free

of the hold you have on me.

Fighting with myself

to leave this life behind

When I've seen it all before

each ploy, plot, nock, laughter

Play my role to paper thin

now I'm breathing in disaster
745 · Oct 2011
Impartial
Raquel Cheri Oct 2011
Every childhood slogan

drilled into our skulls

left room for incompletion

and rebellion of our tongues

Be kind dearest neighbor

They said

treat them as you would yourself...

When my heart was diced in pieces

behind a protective shell

feelings weren't spared for any...

money chasing fame

dreaming dreams involving pain

with actions summing up

to techno-lingo-logical

the only words heard spoken

are implications under jokes

half phrased and cut short

Well i'm not waiting here for you

to decide what you want to do.

moving on but staying true

loving me a bit more then you

you see

I'd reach my hand in your direction

stare my longing in your eyes.

now I'm staring in the mirror....

vulnerable

free

no disguise is holding me

knowing whats underneath

deserves more

and finally

we can

release.... receive.... resurface
727 · Oct 2011
Happiness
Raquel Cheri Oct 2011
Heaping mounds of joy
Always slashing my fears out of the picture
Peculiar are the effects it appears to have on me
Purifying my soul with a blissful rush
Igniting a flame of pleasure
Neglecting the negative remarks
Encouraging all positivity
Satisfying my inner being
Surpassing those not preserving the happiness.
694 · Oct 2011
Ocean (Haiku)
Raquel Cheri Oct 2011
The tranquility
Of a rainbow on crisp wind
Could ease the whimper
689 · Sep 2012
When you're Alone
Raquel Cheri Sep 2012
It is that moment when you're alone
That she creeps in subtle, eerie, durable
Reminding you of all the ways

Life might have wandered down by the sea
Pursuing and perusing elusive harmony
Maybe in that life we could be friends

Real friends who truly loved,
Trusted purely, cherished fervently
With spoken words of endearing honesty
We might bravely unite without pressure

We would make no demands
No judgement would command
Our instinct to recognize
A love so conditional.

It slices the senses
Numbs your joy
And frees your mind
To change.

Infinitely changing to outwit the fear
That moved into your home and decided
To start sleeping on the couch
Where his  virginity was lost

Now he sleeps with the mistress of guilt
Awaiting the day to reckon with
Incomprehensible emotion

An elusive day who
Never seems to come.
662 · Oct 2011
Sleep in Sorrow
Raquel Cheri Oct 2011
I can’t bite this feeling
A feeling like I’m sleeping
Wake up to find I’m dreaming
A dream that wont come true

It seems no one around me
Can see how I am drowning
Suffocated by dark memories
That no one ever knew

And when I am awaken
Those surrounding me are shaken
They only know the “me” whose sleeping
And whose dreams are left askew
651 · Oct 2011
The Axis
Raquel Cheri Oct 2011
If you’re my ally
I have no axis.
Confiding in the enemy
is what kills me habitually.
yet I'm genuinely surprised.
was hopelessly deluded
into thinking you were someone else
the person i wanted you to be
and though my blindness is fading
this wisdom is leaving me hollow.
my soul, losing ignorance, has nothing to cling to
no hope for reason and rationale  
just sifting through my intellect clouded with fear
wanting peace that wont last
because we're feeding the war thats fought in our minds.
It's not physical, what we're doing.
this isn't an emotional sport.
those feelings are on a back burner dying
and i'm trying to comprehend your logic
matching it against my own
to decipher just who in this world I  can call an ally
if my own thoughts betray me then it makes sense
that this world is revolving on an axis.
616 · Oct 2011
Between Abstractions
Raquel Cheri Oct 2011
Grasping at patience
Over taken by need
Hesitantly hopeful
We must take heed, to
Perfect imperfections
In sweet melodies
Our dreams are not dreamt
To be compromised.
608 · Dec 2012
Try
Raquel Cheri Dec 2012
Try
Whats the point?

No one really cares anyway.
588 · Nov 2011
Hey You, I
Raquel Cheri Nov 2011
Place my head under a pillow
and gently suffocate my screaming
heart; swollen from far too much "love"
I bid my time to cross the line
noting signs; foolishly pining
Over all that you are in me
******* my soul with your presence
Until our puzzle has complete
The kinetic theory of heat...
You are the one I want to come home to
528 · Oct 2011
My Hearts Invasion
Raquel Cheri Oct 2011
Another day
Another wager
Paying for mistakes
I had every right to make
Dearest friends
Lovely foes
None invade my heart
Like memories of woe

Was I so blind?
That I could not recognize
The smirk of the devil
As I handed him my sin
On a golden platter

Temptation.

When my eyes told lies
For a prize made of plastic
Fueling my fury
I burn it, and inhale
Toxic memories
High *******
of too many minds combined

Exhale and pray for clarity.
527 · Oct 2011
Moon
Raquel Cheri Oct 2011
My eyes are dancing in your direction
and suddenly they find yours
surprised, I'm jolted by my souls *******
Entranced; but eyes drop to the floor.
Flushed with a lush of emotions
I can hardly bare to move
I smile and glance around the room
My eyes make an orbit encircling you...

And sometimes it feels like you're cold
when i'm in the dead of night.
So shy but I'm trying to be bold
to burn like fire, be your light.
Fearful, I dive in the clouds
when things don't come out right.
But when courage moves me to see you
see me, all the dark world is bright.
Yet the sun keeps stealing my shadows.
Warm. Contagious. Deadly.
I'm just trying to let you live
but at sunrise you'll forget me.

So gravity is my fight with you;
forces beyond my control.
But when you finally realize
you'll have my eyes without disguise.
In spite of all my journeys long wait,
I could not turn my back on fate.

Now, a few more hours till day break
I'll see you on the other side.
The sunshine is fleeting,
but i wont be leaving,
I'll fade.

Just call me moon
Say you're my earth
I am your guiding light
I'll be with you all night
Every night.
Every night.
526 · Oct 2011
Overboard
Raquel Cheri Oct 2011
The ability to transfer emotions
is a little frightening for me.
I smothered the urge to love for so long
one hardly needs reason to flee.
Though your face is all I can see now
and I'm unsure what to believe.
While I'm weighing all my options
stakes are raising for you to leave.
can I say whats dancing on my tongue?
or put these lips to tea¿
I need your words to pull me on
and overboard with thee...
In theory we would be ideal
The weight of love never felt so real
and Fear shouldn't hold us back
from what we feel.
Lest we never carry on this track
towards an empty quaint old shack
where happiness and bliss are all we see....
I'll dip my toes into your water-
you'll dive into my sea.
The rabbit hole is deep
for all you seek and all you weep
when it seems so uncertain
to be free…
be with me.
MB
497 · Mar 2012
Blue Fire
Raquel Cheri Mar 2012
A love so dire
Irrepressible desire
Eyes of blue fire
burning into me.
485 · Dec 2012
The Tide
Raquel Cheri Dec 2012
Measure the weight of words
And how they sit upon your eager heart
They crush towards your center
You lean back upon the start.
Have you noticed yet that I can strain
Myself through all your holes
Look back within a whimper, wondering
What pain we have enclosed.
I hope that we can verbalize and free
The feelings we contain,
We hold each others hearts with pride
To take away the pain...

I picture your hands touching me
And my body starts to tremble
When our souls caress and mingle...
It is to you I will surrender

We are the waves that welcome
The skies fallen tears
479 · Apr 2012
Together and Apart
Raquel Cheri Apr 2012
If things were different, if the world were perfect,
The obstacles between us would cease to keep us
Together and apart.

When galaxies merge, when dimensions converge
And every human need has been woven and stitched
with unwavering satisfaction.

When every intricate detail
and each contrasting complexity
is out, floating in the galaxy
for all to scrutinize.

When scrutiny is a foreign concept.
When loneliness is no more then a word.
When love conquers hatred.
When belonging is the norm.
When disorder finds peace.

When we realize that we all bleed the same blood.
When greed is dead and sleep is not the place where dreams come true.

If things were different, if the vines of mangled pasts were perfect,
The obstacles between us would cease to keep us
Together and apart.

If when this were to be, we knew how
472 · Oct 2011
Eyes open
Raquel Cheri Oct 2011
Eyes open to a world
needing my attention
Absorbed in self, dissolving in you
We'll do what we want to do.
Think I’m not noticing your pace
Your gaze in this non-race
Steady our movement; stop my heart.
I’m feigning for what could never start.
The bodies still and sleeping,
Dreaming wishful thinking.
We are all victims of a crime
Subjects for fear and pain
On those roads we walk alone
we all shelter someones storm.
A sign, something beautiful,
A reason screaming truth.
If you're looking for some proof
lost within our youth
held faith in the forces pull
when love never breathes its fire
it can't be quenched with lone desire.
442 · May 2013
Speak Out
Raquel Cheri May 2013
Where do I begin to speak
of atrocities that occurred
before my very own existence.
Should I ever make a mark
upon the clay molded mountains....
or a dent in the chrome
sentiment of man kind,
Perhaps the world might listen.
427 · Oct 2011
The Edge
Raquel Cheri Oct 2011
Eyes crossed in frustration
Each cell in my body on edge
I'm feeling a little bit guilty
for wishing you were dead.
In a crowd full of strangers
I finally feel at ease;
the pressure of your gaze
was starting to get to me.
I wanted your approval
more then I wanted mine.
I'm not sure what you wanted
but I made you a shrine.
I hope that thats not creepy
please don't call me names
I'd rather sticks and stones
then quarry for insults aimed
on this road I'm traveling
I'll surely go insane
Lest my suffering is ended
by this bullet to my brain...
scrolling through a list of friends
wanting to ask for help
but I can't hit the send button
and you're too far to hear me yell.
I'm in the midst of a crowd
of people who don't care
and I was happy for a while.
Needed no approval there.
I guess I didn't need yours either
but I wanted it so much
maybe all I've ever needed
was to learn to trust.
Trust in myself, and trust in you.
Doing what I want, the way you wanted me to.

— The End —