I love the stars I can make
When I connect the freckles on your face

hello I just want to check up.
do you miss me?
I hope you do.

I want to be whole
with you,
but I can't
so I will learn to be whole
without you

i still look for your license plate
everywhere I go,
even in a different city,
i'll never know.

i'm sorry i couldn't protect you-
i was trying to protect myself
and a waste of time that was,
i've done none
i haven't changed
or grown quite at all
i've just gotten more and more out of control
and that's
the thing that hurts the most
is that i could've prevented this
how am i supposed to show you i'm sorry
if you don't want to think of me
i wouldn't mind a simple yes or no
or a shout
i wouldn't mind if I knew
but i don't.
please
i'm sorry.

today i dreamt and
I honestly can't remember the last time I have,
and well, it was warm.

I love when I dream because
it gives me hope that someday
I can truly be happy,
again.