that since day one, she's already had everything she needs within herself. it's the world that convinced her she did not.

i worry for what we have may not be enough
that one day my smile will not shine the same for him
as it does on this very day
i worry that he won't see how much my heart
cares so deeply for his touch
and craves his soul
i worry i am not as good as she was
that my presence does not flow into words
like hers did
i worry that my heart will always be broken from the last
time i loved
where i could never break through him
but instead
i only broke myself

(1)
My heart fell into his hands
That bright September morning

(17)
Wild flowers bloom in my chest
As he stares from across the room

(76)
I always loved how you always finished my sentences
(And I love you t-)

(210)
His eyes lit up brighter than the galaxy
And I shut my eyes tight
To prove to myself
I am the only supernova in his eyes

(308)
Day seemed to shift too quickly
Into night
Where the stars are masked by the
Impeding clouds

(501)
He left the lights on and the flowers unwatered

(634)
He said he could live without me
Yet
He's still breathing while I drown

(789)
You are in my heart
But I am not in yours

(901)
Weeds weaved in the crevice of my bones
2:31 stays by my side

(1,105)
Time no longer stands still when he looks over me
Whispering his perpetual love

(1,256)
He brings me flowers to prove the pain behind his smile is inexistent

(1,427)
How could I have fallen in love with a boy who
Could never have the capacity to love me, too

(1,582)
He tells me how much better I could be without him
Yet these last one thousand five hundred and eighty two days
All I crave is you

"i don't want to have you
to fill the empty parts of me
i want to be full on my own
i want to be so complete
i could light a whole city
and then
i want to have you
because the two of us combined
could set it on fire"

As I sit next to a girl with hopeful eyes  she wonders about the world.

As I laugh next to a girl with honesty in her words with a little wit inside her speech.

As I sit next to a girl with excitful eyes explaining what she wants in the future.

As I sit next to a girl with dreams as big as mountains I begin to wonder about mine too.

As I listen next to a girl with a wide smile thinking about a boy she once knew.

I knew that boy.
He knew me too.
Oh boy, how I miss him.

I remember I sat next to the boy with bright eyes and a gentle smile as he explained his future, but his smile would fade towards the end.
I never knew why.

I remember I sat next to the boy with dark hair and dimples pondering why he looked so sad when his eyes were so bright and his smile so gentle.


But, before I could ask he was gone.

"it was when i stopped searching for a home
within others
and lifted the foundations of home
within myself
i found there were no roots more intimate
than those between a mind and body
that have decided to be whole"