I want to wake up next to you
Our skin stitched together as one
Just like the card I sent

One big happy deformed person
Much fun could be had
Ugly fun…

We could go to an amusement park
Eat cotton candy ‘til our stitches practically burst
Test out  just how much the horsies will hold

Laugh at our misshapen self in the distorted mirrors
Jam our oversized *** in a bumper car
Point at children who give us sideways glances

Up stage the bearded lady
Bark obscenities at those whom are wider
Yell at the man that tries to make us pay for two

I want to wake up next to you
The pink thread tightly knit
Just like the card you  received

Instead you lay in another bed
A world apart
No bobbin or needle in sight

I love you more than taking out the trash
And more than when my itch becomes a rash

I love you more than doing dishes
And more than when death greets my fishes

I love you more than changing my cat’s litter
And more than when my tea is bitter

I love you more than lukewarm bath water
And more than dragging a lamb to slaughter

I love you more than long line-ups
And more than a child loves dead pups

On a good day…..
I love you more than cheap gasoline
Even more than winning a dollar on the extra
I love you more than a pocket full of quarters
And more than finding the last roll of toilet paper

I love you more than finishing the milk before it sours
Even more than using up the bread before it molds
I love you more than Saturday morning cartoons
And more than a rerun of my favourite program

I love you more than getting revenge
Even more than instant Karma
I love you more than watching *** fights
And more than a drag of my cigarette

On a bad day….
I love you more than commuting on public transit
Even more than luke warm bath water
I love you more than a pocket full of pennies
And more than changing my cat’s litter

I love you more than wine that resembles vinegar
Even more than tasting carob when expecting chocolate
I love you more than finding a fly in my soup
And more than a trip to the emergency room

I love you more than taking out the trash
Even more than doing the dishes
I love you more than waiting in long line ups
And more than receiving change from a five for something that cost $4.01

Ambiguous altered awareness
Beginning brought back
Calm close connection  
Dreamy delicious desires
Ethereal essence ebbing
Fingers for feasting
Giving gentle goodness
Heavenly heart harnessed
Ideal images imagined
Joyous  juicy juxtaposition
Kaleidoscope kisses kept
Lasting lucid lust
Muted memories meshed
Nuzzling nearly ****
Outright open offerings
Pure pleasure passed
Quality quickly quested
Raw rapture revealed
Softly sung song
Thoughtful tender touch
Unique understanding unveiled
Virtuous verbal velvet
Wanting, why wait?
X-otic X-citment X-plored
Yearning yeses yielded
Zealous zesty zeal
I’m addicted to you……

I wish that I had stopped the cab
That i had dashed from the vehicle and into your arms
For one last kiss

A kiss like none other
A kiss to hold on and seize the moment
A kiss to warm my insides and take my breath away

Instead I watched as you waved goodbye
The car pulled away into the darkness
Leaving you behind and a memory unmade

I can’t.
Why?
Because.

Because  it ain’t right.
Because it’s not fair.

Nothing is fair.
It just ain’t.
The sooner realized the better.

This doth suckith.

Feelings raw and tender to touch
Why does this nonsense affect me so much?
I no longer want what I once had
Then why the **** does this make me so mad?

If you could only make up your mind
I think I could deal and in myself find
A better place for my feelings to rest
My temper kept still and not out to test

You were supposed to my friend
Have we truly hit a dead end?
I hope it’s not so and that we can repair
Can we heal together and lift this despair?