It's because I'm getting weak And the confines of my soul are disintegrating You're so lovely but so fast you're fading When you say goodbye I swear I'll break every one of your bones You cut the strings and float away But I'm the weight That drops and stays And it's all alive around me You won't be home to hold me
You thought I was beautiful Until I sprouted Emotions and Passions You left me So I tugged And hacked And singed them Until I was beautiful And pure Again For the next God knows I won't let that happen Ever Again
He knows not to call me baby When the suns gone down To its rising Ill be angry
He gives me nothing when I'm hungry It's my fault when I say Give me Empty rather than Starving
I know We're the same kind He's in love with the lights And the sun rise The same way I But I Spitting fire and light Grabbing onto nothing Can't hold him When light fills his eyes We've got miles between us And so much time And lies
We've filled this room to its locks with fear And distance And there's a shrill ringing from Absence of desire
Baby I painted you in my picture And I don't want to start again You're the mess all over my walls And I'm too drunk off your name To defend
I can't quit your game A thousand words later I'm too drunk off your name A thousand beatings later and You've got A thousand baby's all the same.
Sometimes I wonder I you ever remember That I am a child In the palms of your hands You can make or break me At any second You have tamed me And taught me And I resent that
I want your bed sheet tongues and your enveloping arm lips to swallow me hard and never spit me back out so please hold me down and let your word jaws crush me until I can't breathe because when I think about you I laugh cry and I free fall until you ****** me back up in the air where I wait float down until you do it again and again oh god you've got me by my neck between your stone lips fingertips all hot and adrenaline cold you're the smoke filling my head and the ice in my veins you are taking me so high and ringing me out so thin I forget who I am and where I'm going and you make none of it matter you are my biggest nightmare you could collapse my frame with one breath from your lips and I am not sure if I could ever build myself back again and it is sheer insanity and bliss.
There are key words That are fate The words: Hiding Or Wait They mirror back And float to the surface And they have ties To our names And all the places we've been
There are songs And flavors And scents That are fragments Of you and me
To cut the throat Of the virus that branches It's spider finger tips *******, cutting, and licking venom To spread turn blood to **** and stomach bile In your veins Until it kisses your brain Unfolding and cursing Over and again
To remove the dust from the window sill And push open to glass To a warm summers night Air thick enough to fill your ears To slip past the lips Expand and fill The holes of your airways But coming as a whisper of the soothsayer To take you to the deep velvet river banks Turning your flesh to sand Matter recycled To turn to earth and trees That become a part of the cycle Misery and Majesty Matter and antimatter
I am the tides Pulled both ways The flame that burns Building, glowing frame But devouring, taking away Pulled both ways Night and day Polars The same I don't understand But I can see everything
Skin is all the same Words are just sounds Rain is just salt water Tears the same Lips are all lips All touches are received Happiness is chemical Finger tips cannot **** Finger tips that scarcely touch Are capable of so much pain
The rule is You get what you give So why do those who give all Not receive the same Guess it's not enough
I was taught love is like gravity Reciprocated and unwavering Like the tides They never fail
Slipping back the silent killer Of phantom demons Metallic enemies I have seen the warm lake boil Bacterial memories By twos by threes Beautiful like clean sheets And unmarred pages Wholly holy leaves Of weeping willows They are me They never sleep Uprooted and clean Burning off the ticks and fleas No trace Departed history
The girl who sang Toppins' a bag And dreamed of white and cream Clothes and sheets And vows wrapped in silver linings Blank white pages With endless capacity For love And whispered dreams through the cracks of finger tips Then stretch them up to the open arms of dying trees
She called you to know she asked, Do you ever grow Out of resenting your very own skin and bones Every atom And I am So alone When you don't call Slipping out on a warm night I can never tell What sets you off Vibrates your bones Like you do in the pit of my stomach Electric fingers and eyes shone They had never known What it is like For a heart to ignite In hands of lighter fluid
From the open To the close Of steel lid eyes It doesn't feel right From the departure The splitting of the seas Of sheets To the holy reuniting Its all gray stuffing From seam to seam From floor to ceiling Blank dry Eyes still staring under lids Collisions behind the curtains Behind the scenes A sweet obstruction Our neglected eye lids
Sour apple brain Velvet lids Concrete lips Hands that ***** their body In vain or in shame A body disconnected from A brain Wanders looking for hosts That never touch it the same The brain wanders for hosts That will regulate its deficits Hosts that never spark it the same Both glass to break Both paper thin Giving themselves up at the lips of flame And the flame The burning hands of a body A body disconnected from a brain All the same Ready to burn ready to spark Again and again
Honey settled in the cracks too deep Favorite delusion Soothe sayer Baby Tasting bitter sweet Thicken and sicken
Rose I couldn't keep Thorns in my gums with every trial Every word I speak The kiss ****** back up into my cheek The little weights at my feet Threads pulling up my lids While yet, my mind is black As ash
I can't look out of my window Since you I cant let myself notice Everything is still moving forward Too fast and far