a tear is forming on
the beginnings of the healing marks upon my heart--
the words pull the jagged scarring apart
[the words you tell me in abrupt moments of precisely practiced and most delirious serendipity],
as you say:
i was never meant to love you,
but i'm also not meant to leave you.
just leave, you sadistic thorn in my flesh,
and don't dare to think you may breathe from my same lungs again,
that you might hoist yourself over me,
[the words you whispered once in barest moments of agonizing vulnerability]
as you say,
i want to feel all of your skin
on all of my skin.
is it not enough for me to hear those words knocking at my door,
barking,
their claws sinking in to the wood,
tearing at the elm barricade,
[the words you speak as a wolf howls at the door and as a dog begs for scraps]
as you say,
i will decide how you are to love me,
and how you are not to?
no--
i hold your face in my hands,
sink my nails into your skin,
tear one last glance from your vacuous eyes,
and say with my own words,
**i am not
listening.