Rachel Berrios: Poems

Fix me

Rachel Berrios Jun 2014

Fix me

Who will take on the task?
To tackle the problem that is me,
Can I ever heal?
The glue will not hold my heart together,
The pieces will fall,
They take over the ground
Unavoidable, we all walk upon the remains
of my shattered heart.
Who will fix me?
Collect the pieces of my puzzle, and tape them together
Who will conquer the constant obstacle? Climb the walls of my mind?
Fix me?
I will.

Life has taught me how to die

Rachel Berrios Jun 2014

Life has taught me how to die

With each beat of my heart I hear the sound of the train.
It shouts at me, so do the voices.
My head can't choose, which to listen to,
The train wants me to move,
My heart wants me to stay.
Each beat draws the train closer,
leading me to the end,
the end of the line, the tracks only lead one way,
the last beat, the last breath I will breathe.
My heart beats no more, my lungs expand and contract for the last time.
Dying is so simple for a person so small.

Monster

Rachel Berrios Sep 2014

Monster

There is blood on the horizon
let the blood bath begin
let the blood sink in
Washing is futile
you soak in the blood of those who have fallen before you
does it change you?
the DNA of others
mixing with yours
Who are you?
I don't know you anymore

Nothing

Rachel Berrios Jun 2014

Nothing

Nothing compares
to the sting of the blade
as it grazes my skin
I feel the release
but it comes up short
the sadness creeps back in
the red was a waste
all for nothing

Remember

Rachel Berrios Jun 2014

Remember

I can't remember

I can't remember
the last time I felt love

I can't remember
my best memory
my happiest moment

I can't remember
the last time the chains didn't bind me
keeping me attached to my fears
the monsters, I am their prisoner

I can't remember
when the blood stopped spilling
the fresh skin took it's place
leaving a mark behind
never to be forgotten, not gone from my mind

I can't remember
the last person to notice
to ask
to worry

I can't remember
feeling whole
being complete

I can't remember
the last meal I ate

I can't remember.

Untitled

Rachel Berrios Jun 2014

Untitled

It must have been love
To sweep me away to a place
where fears face the light
inner reality no longer weighed so much
you took me there
Thank you

You

Rachel Berrios Jun 2014

You

You have slipped from my hands
You have fallen into the dark
You will never be mine
You will never know how much I love you
You won't ever know me
But my heart will beat for you.

Your Way

Rachel Berrios Jun 2014

Your Way

You can't see past yourself
Blind to the ways of others,
You stumble and fall.

You reach and fall.
Your way
Will fail.

— The End —