Must you 
Be so un-endearing 
When times of sadness sweeps my mind and my darkness goes blind 
Shots to my head like I'm going to be dead next 
Would you? 
Because I'm telling you something you didn't know. My chipper attitude isn't priceless. It comes along with sorrow and bliss. 
Together. 
YOUR attitude 
Your hostility of what you don't understand and could never comprehend is unparalleled to my darkness I feel. 
Leave me alone and just let me be real.

I sit in my apartment quiet 
Wounded so hard inside 
My chest feels like a hole has been dug out 
I cry because I can't believe 
I've lost my beliefs when you took my trust 
I trusted you completely 
How naive and ignorant of me 
How ungraceful to allow you in my body 
I cry when I'm in my bed 
Where you left me 
Naked at the door 
I feel that moment once more 
So blurry 
Every man 
Every person 
Reaps what you have sworn into my mind of a mysterious river full of lies 
Trust. I cannot 
It was hard before but now it is irrelevant.
I do not trust inside. Myself or anyone else
You broke me. I'm numb, I'm a sore.

What goes around comes around comes back ah roundddd
What goes around comes back around
What goes around comes back around
Like writing this song I get a pebble in my shoe
To remind me what I didn't knew
Smiles in the streets
Blinds in the sheets
Kisses at my feet
Misses by your beat
What goes around comes
Back ahhh round
I said what goes around
Goes around
GOOoooo round
And around here we lay it down nice
They seem like a priceless vice
While you remain their gifted price
To take out
To make out
It will be one to despair
Myself and your lonely pair
*****; till it falls
your my mistake and withdrawal
Keep that bittersweet by side and three times you will rise
Peace
Broke a piece of my heart
Peace
See you next lifetime
You might be a slug
I thought too much from you
I'm a fool
To think you could truly make it drool
You lied,
you've now said your goodbyes
Mistrust
My naive bliss
Red colored glasses in times like this
Vulnerability.

God please forgive me
for I have sinned
a many of them
Lies to genuine believers
Immortality rises in my mind
I go blind
Black outs and faded nights
Heart beats hard and fast
Mind spins from that beer in the glass
Morals have been confused
Take me back to that girl who didn't abuse
Take me back please god take me back
Eyes melt into a thousand disappointed atoms of my self worth
This is my life and I have treated it wrongly
Thank you for the pain
To teach me the blessing of not abusing my body
I am not addicted
but afflicted by the fake smiles I gain
From altering my mind with substance not kind
A poison to make me feel this way now
A poison I diagnose myself with
It felt better without all of this
I should reap what I've done
I gracefully won the battle of challenge
My mind still aches
tummy is okay
Peace of mind
draw me back in please
Beggars on her knees
This is me
Praying for the sun to uplift me on it's own
Not to need my soul removed
Not to need something to make me smile
It was a fake grin
Filled with sin

I'm looking for something in all the wrong places
The many faces I have
To all the men who believe in my sin
So many, too many to call kin
Although I've let them in
Not this soul
Never an ******* role
Because I'm searching for a man made of music
To fill my lonesome void
He doesn't exist
Do you keep trying?
Keep having a moment of sabotage
This body
This heart
Can't feel what your tryin to give
Because I'm looking for something that doesn't live
I'm living, I'm the music
I'm what I'm looking for