Submit your work, meet writers and drop the ads. Become a member
 
Quinn Mar 2014
I can't stand you
And the way you make me ache
At three in the morning
When I long for your whispers
And a shot of novacaine
To my heart
From where it pains me to hear the words
Or to think that I'm nothing more then Idle
And Stupid
When the clock strikes four the acid in my veins is all too much to bare
And the creaking in my bones is the echo of your heart beat
Quinn Jul 2014
And it is love's great triumph
That in our bones we feel whole
The illusion leaves us warm
And the impression that spring and summer will never fade
In these eternal seasons the blind wonder content in the world
Silently fearing the inevitable
But in this cycle we exsist
With emotions both hungry and primal
We crave the lie that we concieve in selfish childhood
Quinn Jan 2014
It’s coursing through her veins
Eating away at her
Making her nothing but a hollow empty shell She has her friends and family but that just adds to it
Making her just emptier and emptier
They all seem happy
Why isn't she?
But alas, happiness still evades her
In its stead, loneliness creeps in, and the feeling that no one could ever understand or love a broken girl
who is far beyond repair
She bleeds just to feel something
Anything other then this stinking feeling that fills her with dread
Fear eats away at her heart till it is gone
Compassion is by now impossible but she puts on a face to fool the crowd
The one perk of loneliness is mastering the illusion of “its okay”
She gets a lot of practice
Till soon she herself is believing
But by then she is but a fool who weeps by herself in the darkness
All alone
Quinn Sep 2013
How it slips through my finger tips
Like smoke
Or was it ever really there
The hour glass is empty
As is my soul
Tossed into the abyss of forever
And ever
And ever
Falling for eternity
Taking with it the lives of those its skeletal hands can reach
And then we all turn to ash
Quinn Feb 2014
As the night begins to deepen in this lonesome soul
Will you still be here
When St. Jude calls my name and when the insomnia begins to crawl
Will you love me as the blood turns to quick sand
Am I still breathable?
Am I safe to touch?
As the contagion muddies the mind and burns the body
When my skin turns to ash and my mind to mush
What will become of us then?
In this hapless state of angelic demise
The soul begins to crumble
The mind begins to wonder
And a love laid in stone can be worn away by the wind
Quinn Apr 2014
It's a sad sort of hell
Where I no longer feel at home in my skin with my friends
In the flesh with taunting faces
As the tears roll down my cheeks
And I can't help but sink deeper and deeper into this inferno
I feel heavy as lead
And melt like it too
Quinn Sep 2013
Smoke in the air
Ciggarettes on my tongue
The sweet taste of nothingness
The water is warm
But my heart is ice cold
Unsaid words like acid in my throat
Quinn Oct 2013
It was a dance of allure, pure like sugar cane,
And each step was ****** to begin with.
Jazz roared wild through our hearts,
Strumming on our bass notes.
Each bitter sweet note was tender and painless.
The rough jazz singer called out into the night,
The band played and stars sung out in all their elegance
And we danced
And danced.
The music died low
And the stars hummed softly to the night.
There was a temptation in the satin thump of a bass
As our hearts strummed together.
Then a string broke,
The band stopped,
The room dimmed,
The stars wept,
The polished brass of the trumpets became rusty and blackend,
The singer melted away into shadows,
And the room was now simply old and abandoned.
And this was my new truth.
Quinn Jan 2014
In the depths of my being
In the very core of my souI can feel something stirring
It’s snakes it’s way through me
There is so much of it now it hurts
Hope hurts
The hope that maybe we could be together
Across the sea
You and me
It is an irrsistable thought that nessles itself into my subcouncious
Rearing it’s beautifly stupid head when the very thought could break me
Somewhere inside of me hope lies
And no matter how much I would like to rip it out of my chest and fling it at some fool willing to listen to its soft seductive voice
But alas, I cannot
Because somewhere within me it is stirring
Cooing my name softly
Waiting for me to bite
Not I though
Long ago I fell for its tricks and charms
Now I lock it inside a box inside my heart
Sealing it forever inside me but never in control
Blind it stumbles in that box for a way out
And it found it
When you called me love
In shock, I dropped the key
Right infront of hope
Now it is free and is infesting every cell in my body
Taking over me
Knawing at my insides
So much hope it hurts
Stupid hope
Stupid stupid hope
Quinn Mar 2014
My busted broken lip matches my busted broken ego
And the bitter taste of iron is once again a familiar tone on my tongue
The satisfaction of being right has evaded me again
As it rings ragged in my ear
As I am forced to kneel of no accord of my own
I bend with slouching shoulders
And a lazy smile
That I paint on with acid and arsenic
And I wait
For when I can mend my bruised flesh
And mollify the monster inside us all
Quinn Jan 2014
Sweet summer grass swings in the heat
The breeze churns the stifling dead air
The fields stretch their ever lasting fingers to the sky
A deep blue sky that caps the world in a beautiful hazy dream
The sun whispers honey coated lullabies to the pasture
Adoring lullabies of the meadows and streams
Of the endless flowers of the southern sky
Daises, buttercups, and the ceaseless wild flowers that grow rabid in your eyes
Quinn Nov 2013
Orange and red
Besmirched upon the ground
Oppressed winds howl in the lead hearts of man
No words are spoken
as silence swallows the land
With is haunts and its banshee calls
Shadows grow longer
and their folly is immense
As our night becomes their play ground
And their prescense becomes our fear
When the moon is high and waiting
Silver fingers
out stretched to greet the sleeping heads of man
To fill them with effervescenent dreams
Melencholy minds are set at ease as the fireside blazes
Satin stares and obscure kisses fill the night
As the seemingly never ending night
Chases the day
Secret lovers flourish
As it all just fade away
Quinn Jan 2014
As the flickering candle dwindles in the darkness
Your face darkens and you look away
I know why your upset and instead of comforting you
I blow out the candle and make a wish for you
I kiss your forehead and hope for it to come true
You touch my hand to your face once and let go
I leave
I wished for you to be happy
Quinn Nov 2013
Your fingers were rough and calloused
Always rough and calloused
Work was all you knew
Besides women and *****
***** and women
Your soft sad smile I remember well
And your smell
I could get high from the heavy mix of wood and paint
Your black hair slicked back
I loved when you took me to bars
You'd buy me an ice cream or some pop
Oh, those were the good ol' days
When you flirted with waitresses and bartenders alike
I was so niave
A blissful thing, to be a fool
A beautiful fool
Quinn May 2014
A bee tapping against the glass
No way out no way in
As the flowers remain outside
And I remain in
Their vibrant colours haunting the
Polygonal patterns of my eyes
As the bee thump thump thump's
It is helpless to the taunting house
Soon it will curl up on the window sill
When it is tired and out of breath
And so will I
Quinn Sep 2013
Cold blankets cover blue toes
Heavy hearts sleep soundly in a sagging bending bed
Pale eye lids do not stir, do not flutter
A withered face is still,
Wrinkles stiff
Crooked hands folded over a cold crooked heart
A flat, deflated chest is sunken in and hollow
Snow nipped lips pressed in a soft curve for eternity
Quinn Aug 2013
I'm taking ten steps back
Figurativly speaking of course
Really I'm just going back
To all the old things that used to make me smile
A year or two ago
That seems
So very long ago
Yet
A day or two ago
The lines are blured
Quinn Feb 2014
Abuse in the purest form
You made me fall
And By all the laws of gravity I crashed
And you flew
With your love laced wings
Along with Her
Into the sunset with all my well spent dreams
And I broke everything
With nothing to slow me down
Quinn Oct 2013
Deadly fingers creep up my spine like ivy
Dread soaked lips steal the hushed breath from my lungs
Phantom eyes peer into my soul
And eat away my flesh
I am bare before this creature
As I am naked, vulnerable, it attacks me
Its bones rattle and creak
as it eats away at me
Covering me in anxiety
And the beast sees
With no eyes
It sees me
Quinn Jan 2014
We met in a field of wild flowers
The sea of blue and purple were overwhelming and the smells swirled around us
I was a butterfly
Care free and happy
Newly hatched from a constricting cocoon
You were a boy who had a net
You were looking for butterflies to add to your collection
I flitted about from flower to flower
You had a pleasant smell like one of them so I came near
It turned out you had a net
And caught me with a swish
You grabbed me with your rough hands to stuff me in a jar
I didn't want to go
But I could break out of my prison  
At first I rammed the jar fiercely
Then I just gave up
For days I laid helplessly on the bottom of that jar
You didn't feed me you didn't care
I was just another pretty prize
But then one day you opened the jar with a flower
I took my chance
Into the air I flew and for the briefest moment I was free
Then you caught me again
And you crushed my wing
I was no longer the pretty full of life butterfly you sought
After you realized I was a broken toy you threw me away onto the sidewalk
Where someone stepped on me and crushed my to the pavement
Quinn Sep 2013
"Sometimes words come when you’re on an adventure. Sometimes words come when you’re alone under a starry night sky. Sometimes they beat down on you like the sun. Sometimes they softly fall from the sky like a summer rain. Words about beauty, love, war, hate. Words about passion, sorrow, tears, and smiles. Soft words that speak loud and loud words that speak soft. Words come from everywhere, all sides and all angles. The Words, however, are fleeting and frail, they only wish to be captured and remembered. Stories of far-flung fantasy, grounded reality, dark and dreary, or light and uplifting. This is the Soul of the Word. I sit her, waiting on the Words, waiting for their revelations and insights. My pen is eager, but the fire is starved and cold. Why won’t they come? "
This was not written by me but a dear friend and I just wanted to share it with y'all
Quinn Mar 2014
I'm tired of this empty concept of a man's mind
Contracting and constricting my world
And pulling it out of parallel
As it preaches ideals that should be human nature
Not the word or teaching of some divine entity
Quinn Jan 2014
I can just smell the changing leaves

and the sleeping trees

I can feel the analogous color schemes in the air

Under a harvest moon trees become bare

Welcome autumn finally

And all the wonderful things you bring with it.
Quinn Jan 2014
black and blue words written on a thinly veiled world

in small print on a crisp white page

my story is written in red on the next page a dull used page with scribbles

and erase marks in child's hand writing.
Quinn Jan 2014
Smoke dances from my lips
Out here were there is no laws, no rules
As I sit on the rough concrete steps with the moths and the ash
as my solemn companions
The street lights stare as the heat settles close,
sweat rolling heavily off my brow
The embers speak of the god I no longer care for
in pure words so ancient only the old oaks know them
Devils wretch themselves from the smoke and dance around me
Satan himself sits beside me, kissing my lips, sweet like sin
He sits silently with me
Golden eyes like slits
I bring the **** of my cigarette to my sullen lips
and take a sugar coated drag
My lungs brimming with peace
God turns his thorny head
With a wave of his pure almighty hand
A wicked grin spreads out on the fluid curve of
my lips
I am condemned
Quinn Feb 2014
Marred with words I never said; Coursing with the notion I'll never say them. Words like thunder; That echo in the heavens as they rattle your atmosphere and break the very bones that keep you structured. Words that are so soft and lustful; They are a mere gossamer touch in you ear; Lulling you to idleness. They stain. Ink bubbles out of my lips and dribbles onto my chin and down my neck. Staining me blue in my inadequacy.
Quinn Oct 2013
Why do I miss you?
It just feels so wrong
After all these years I've spent trying to hate you

I miss you terribly
Through all the lies
Through all the abandoment over the years
Through the pain

I miss you horribly
Its putrid
But I still love you

So please, daddy,
Come home
Please
Quinn Jan 2014
What I'm finding is that
This stubborn old man,
With his withered heart and lonely soul,
and I
With my sad expression and tired sighs
Are two beautifully tragic people
Who have fallen prey to the reform know as life
But we still live
Quinn Sep 2013
I can see you crashing through my head
Although I know our love is dead
Cast into the sea with all my heart
When you said goodbye with a poison dart
That killed me on the spot
While you ran away with the lot
It makes me sick everytime
Because you made me feel so sublime
Was our love so cheap to you
That you thought another girl was due?
Well know now our love is dead
As you go crashing through my head
I just realize how tacky rhyming is
Quinn Jan 2014
As the nights languish with a fond kiss from lover's lip; Spry words spring from the dwindling flame as to revive its languor. In vain they stumble; Quick to the sword.
Love is, alas, a simple trinket to be bought and sold as they chose. Let it **** the next folk who haplessly come across it's starry eyed embodiment. Oh how black and binding it becomes; blinding the eyes to the truth. Which foolishly enough we over take.
For any chance at the happiness we seek is a happiness we take; Little in the hearts of man do you find contentment in solitude. Such a desire that burns in the heart; Little do we know of the derangement that befalls us.
Damnable in all it's wiles; once as sweet as honey then in a blink of the soul a black churning cyclone. It is the destruction we seek; But yet we do not destruct alone. This is what love brings us.
Countless night up; With wondering minds and curious hearts. It brings spring on a whim to tempt the summer to come back to us. It brings heart ache like a dusk; As the sun sets and we have fear that tomorrow never will come.
When all you get is heart ache; Is this what you crave. Endless nights in the dark after the wolves devour all your happiness.
Crave this lust of love; For all your want, you'll never have. Bestow upon yourself this damnable title and live as you shall. For we are men, and this is our curse; This damnable want of love to escape the lonely pit of ourselves. If only for the night.
Quinn Jan 2014
I have felt no immortality
I have had no great love
Death comes as a conquests
Lonely and sad
My muse is dead and my heart broken
Death is waiting
My secret lover
In this ever changing
Sun lite world
I thrive in the constant darkness
Quinn Sep 2013
Oh what it would be like
To play your ribs like a piano,
Run my hands over the smooth ivory that is your skin,
To trace long the curve of your spine,
Draw all the little bumps with my finger,
To trail kisses along your jaw line,
And to lay claim to every bit of you
With every little bit of me.
Quinn Feb 2014
Close your eye; Dissolve into the uncertainty of the dawn. It's coming regardless of how prepared or at peace you are with it. It is coming for you; It is coming for me. It is coming with bloodied fingers and cruel words. As the light blinds us; Dawns bright light. So cold; so cruel. Let it wash you into the sea with impure intentions. Let it's fingers wrap around your neck like a lover. Scream; Yell; Shout. Nothing is nothing; And we are all small nothings in the sea. Swept away with all the shipwrecks and whale bones. Decay is all we are; Big bags of decay. We waste and we squander all of our being. As non-existent time ticks on; So does our dying bones to the dawn. Let us close around our deep bruises and bleed our black sour blood to the wind. For if we don't live, what are we left to do but decompose into ash and waste away to the earth. It is an unsightly faith for which only we with our "superiority" hold dear. As we count and die by the dozens. Like flies; We fall off the cliff face like lemmings. One after another; Mother after brother. Down they fall. So they perish. Or so they fly; Fall; Die; Live. But the truth of it is inevitable; We are all dying in our skin.
Quinn Feb 2014
My lids heavy like mountains as they creep up against the sea; Laden with sand that courses down my face. Sand dunes fill my palms as I burn; Hot and eternal. A bright flame in an even brighter place but there is no place to breathe. The dry air pulls all the vitality from my aching skin and robs me of all life. As my bones turn to rock and the rocks turn to sand and the sand returns to the sea; For thus I am reduced. Joint after joint collapses till my journey is carried on by my eyes who trod on; Perishing soon after to the moon; Vanquished by the stars.
Quinn Jan 2014
Your right here
So close to me
I want to reach out and hold you
but you mind has drifted and now you are far
carried by the tide
Lost
but I promise to find you
Promise.
Quinn Dec 2013
So close yet so far away
Are the flitting bats
They get caught in cobwebs I can no longer see
Or do I ignore them
Trapped they die
Along with my ambition
eat
Quinn Jan 2014
eat
Hollow like bleached bones
And the insufferable greed for more
To fill the empty void
Consuming and consuming as I go
Eating the stars, and the moon, and any scrap of sunshine I can get
Yet it's still not enough
And happiness still evades me
Till the hunger, the greed, the need for more destroys me
Or I destroy myself
Quinn Jan 2014
"Stupid *****" The words felt like daggers as they past through her lips. "****, crack head, terrible mother." I hope my words hurt equally as much, if not more.
Quinn Nov 2013
The sweet untouchable devils
Laugh like queens of ice
Wicked words on their tongue
God holds no truth in Their Night
A girl howls absently
Gone with the love she breathed
Into Their Night's air
Gone
Quinn May 2014
In the inbetween space
Of what I am told to believe and the immense possibilities of this lying life
I converse with the devil and the god who are all the same
And the room is orange with inkwells in my mind
As the birds who do not only challenge me but may not exist
How do I know if a room is there when I am not in it
What is life but a divine lie
While death is a white void
How do I know what is real and what is made
When the skin boils like meat
When humans are indestructible
Are we living
Quinn Feb 2014
Liquid tongues and long faces dance around me like dogs; Maddened with insanity that pulses through me like electricity. Oh to be young and dying in the cold; No air left to breathe with no space to live. Colour is my enemy as it taunts my face and brushes it red. Through the dark decay of life on this god forsaken rock; All is forsaken in a non existent god who neither cares nor feels our pain. As we pour our efforts into days that grow short; Distracting ourselves from our pain.  It is like a drug in our poor minds; Begging on the street for more. Hell, the pain makes us human; Makes us feel. It brings light to that bottomless void in us and fills it with something that makes us feel alive. Without it, who are we to say we exist; With false fantasies of happiness conjured up by some puppeteer or dreamer; Where we are mere atoms that make up their life. But the pain makes us live; Makes it true. Makes us alive where otherwise we would be dying. It fills the void.
Quinn Jan 2014
Indigo ink on the black of my heart

that stain the pages of time and wraps around my soul
Quinn Nov 2013
Cold blood stirs in a barren heart
The soul long dead
And the heart flown away
Leaving an empty withering shell behind
Cracked ribs creak and break with the wheezing of breath
Cob webs and leaves litter the mind
Making thought slow and insignificant
One day the heart may come back
And enter it's withered cage
But the scars will show
And naught will be the same again
Quinn Jan 2014
My mind is always somewhere else.

Somewhere where I’m not.
Quinn Dec 2013
***** me for trying to makes friends
It's hard
No ***** people and their selfish ways
I'd like to see you try
Quinn May 2014
Blind lovers are true
Behold the sadness in them
Yet they save face
Quinn Apr 2014
I'm not broken
I'm heavy and sad and scared
I'm not a puzzle that need to be put back together or fixed
I'm ill not injured with metallic limbs
I can't even get up in the morning
And the more I remember
The harder it is to stand
And by god it hurts to be me
Quinn Aug 2013
I feel like my sadness has become my default mindset
And my negativity never ceases to amaze me
In the most putrid sense of the word
*Amaze
Quinn Jan 2014
I just sit here and watch you throw your life away
I just don’t know what to do
As you drown your pain in alcohol
All I can do is just sit by
Even after I went to the hospital because of your drinking problem
You still drink
And now I just don’t know what to do
I just don’t know anymore.
Quinn Feb 2014
A scream wants to tear out of my throat,no , a howl. It’s clawing my way from inside me, my heart throbbing in my chest. Poison drips from my lips in ink, staining my pale skin. My too pale skin. My hands clutch at the raw dry feeling in my throat as I try to scream but no words come out, no sounds. Finally I just give up and my hand drops to my side. In the darkness I sit huddled against the wall, alone. My heart beats slowly. Thump, thump, thump. It seems to be the only sound beside my ragged breathing. Each breath feels torturous as air fills my cracked, damaged lungs. The only lubrication for them is the metallic blood that seeps from the dry tissue. My shriveled up blood caked lips mouth words that no one will see. Pity, they were my last.
Next page