It was the slightest gossamer touch
And it brought me to my knees
I awoke in a panic
Only to see you were gone
But this time not a dream
In your wake you left hazy day dreams
Full of laughter and honey suckle
Darling, there was starlight dancing
As candles flickered and lilac and mint swayed in the lazy breeze
There was fruit ripe for the harvest and you reaped it
Sweet nectars dripped down your palm as you caught it with your tongue
And offered it to me
Oh how ripe, how sweet
Now be stilled in my soul
The tender wildflowers that were yours
Now I would never forget
Though the sands of time may ravage my heart
Wild flowers will still flourish in my temperance
So it was not a dream
Though I was asleep
For so many years
Now enlightened with soft little wildflowers
that grow deep in my soul

Wild strawberries in august heat
With a bitter taste and frail being
Only plucked and tasted by the curious
Native to gardens and lawns
Growing rampant in the grass
Domesticated to no one
Free

As still as snow
As cold as silence
As brilliant as lovers
As blind as the Reaper
As endless as depression
As periless as the ocean
As selfish as life
As dead as common sense
As deadly as passion
As warm as blood
As empty as a promise
As comforting as smoke
As nessicary as the end
As lovely as the dark
As ferocious as love
As sick as reality
As wicked as happiness
As false as god
As pointless as liberty
As tall as feeling
As cruel as fate
As lonely as the wind
As twisted as a book
As heartbreaking as the future
As true as a compass
As sweet as wild flowers
As somber as the stars
As sad as thunder
As soft as freshly cut grass
As quiet as blue
As vivid as a stupid wish
As compassionate as a rock
I feel the world inside me
And its weight on my shoulders

Why is it
That when a person is gone
Do you feel your need for them to be there?
Its as if they are toys that you didn't bother playing with when you were little
They were just fixtures in your room
All you wanted was more toys,
Different ones
Because the old ones were never good enough
Then when your parents wanted to get rid of them you protested
But they were already gone
And you felt the sting and pain and need for them to be there
You lost your fixtures
Because of the selfish need for more

The light fades to black
Chased away by demons
Each with their peircing gaze
With their razor sharp teeth
And claws for the ****
And the shred
To tear into the flesh
And to destroy
Everything you ever loved
Ever hoped for
Ever dreamed
Till, suddenly, your crying on the floor
And they're laughing
The awful sons of ******* are laughing at you
Shrill and condcending
They're laughing at your misery
At how pathetic you are
At your weakness
And most of all
At your pain
Soon that is all you can feel
Pain
And hurt
And torment
Because they remind you
It's what they exsist for
To remind you
Each and everyday you take in breath
Of how alone
How vulnerable you really are
And piece by piece
You break
And shatter
But no matter how many times you pick up the pieces
You will never
Ever
Truly be whole again
Never
Ever
But the pain soon fades
You become numb
Soon
When you are cold
And sleeping
Sleeping so soundly
Nothing could ever wake you
Or break you
Not anymore