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Quinn Jan 2014
As the nights languish with a fond kiss from lover's lip; Spry words spring from the dwindling flame as to revive its languor. In vain they stumble; Quick to the sword.
Love is, alas, a simple trinket to be bought and sold as they chose. Let it **** the next folk who haplessly come across it's starry eyed embodiment. Oh how black and binding it becomes; blinding the eyes to the truth. Which foolishly enough we over take.
For any chance at the happiness we seek is a happiness we take; Little in the hearts of man do you find contentment in solitude. Such a desire that burns in the heart; Little do we know of the derangement that befalls us.
Damnable in all it's wiles; once as sweet as honey then in a blink of the soul a black churning cyclone. It is the destruction we seek; But yet we do not destruct alone. This is what love brings us.
Countless night up; With wondering minds and curious hearts. It brings spring on a whim to tempt the summer to come back to us. It brings heart ache like a dusk; As the sun sets and we have fear that tomorrow never will come.
When all you get is heart ache; Is this what you crave. Endless nights in the dark after the wolves devour all your happiness.
Crave this lust of love; For all your want, you'll never have. Bestow upon yourself this damnable title and live as you shall. For we are men, and this is our curse; This damnable want of love to escape the lonely pit of ourselves. If only for the night.
Quinn Jan 2014
I was going to be sick
As this little balding man preached to us about Jesus
And politics
While Mark rotted in that box as Grammy watched and wailed
The smell of embalming fluid filled my lungs and began to suffocate me
Sickly sweet and pure chemical death
Nicotine drenched fingers
And leather were abundant in Osborne's
Where a funeral was a place to advertise
I was going to be sick
I wanted to crawl out of skin and scream
I wanted to hold her
While she grieved
I wanted nothing more then to hold her
As they shut the box on Grizz's waxy pale fingers
And she cried as a Mother should cry
Because "No mother should see her son in the obituaries
or in a box or have to burry them"
Quinn Jan 2014
I dream of a time when I was small
A time where my memories no longer reach
When Memerre was still here
And Jean too
When the weight  of the world was light
And snow fell livid in my soul
I dream of the hazy beach sun and those road trips to Kitty hawk
I dream of the colourful array of pegasi
I dream of spring
A time where Rolo ran beside me in the thick grass
I dream of the house on hollywood with it's two stories and pealing paint
There are flickers in my dreams of Matt who was strong and of the Jeep that kept mommy safe
I dream of a time where I didn't know the meaning of the curses that flew in that house
And a time when they weren't directed at me
And I miss it

I miss it all
I miss not knowing which bottle was filled with beer or understanding why mommy acted funny
I miss not knowing what a **** was or how to make one
I miss when Grandad was around
I miss when Caroline was my baby sitter
I miss Cindy and that pool she took us to
I miss my childhood and I hate that it was taken from me

I hate that the curtain was lifted
I hate that I didn't do anything
I hate what happened to me
I hate what happened to us
I hate what I've become
Quinn Jan 2014
eat
Hollow like bleached bones
And the insufferable greed for more
To fill the empty void
Consuming and consuming as I go
Eating the stars, and the moon, and any scrap of sunshine I can get
Yet it's still not enough
And happiness still evades me
Till the hunger, the greed, the need for more destroys me
Or I destroy myself
Quinn Jan 2014
In her arms, as she held me
It all just melted away
The air was still, my mind at ease

As my sobs began to lessen
And my breathing became still
All was still, all was resting

Her arms still held me, as the tears still streamed down my face
She held me, and it was all okay
Quinn Jan 2014
The shaking tears roll down my round cheeks
Hot and heavy are my laboured breath
It feels like a punch in the gut
The abscence of life
Why am I crying so hard for a man I barely even remember?
It's no matter now
I'm all spent up
And he is soon to be just another bag of bones anyway
Into a crowned pit he goes
Only to be forgotten
Quinn Jan 2014
As scream threatens to tear through me
As I am torn apart
My blood stained breath lingers with what little heart beats I have left
Ragged, and harsh
My voice is like sharp glass
With every venomous tone of morality
It's like acid on my tongue and I want to ***** up a lung
My back arches back as pain spikes through me
My back bending violently
At all angles
Snap, crush, pop
My limbs torn from their sockets
Breaking or being ripped from me
Agony with its lush voice shreds me apart
Till I am bare and gushing blood on the floor
Life dripping from my lips
Dark red staining my pale skin
The world becomes blurred
As my intentions become a skewed
My body a crumpled mess
I can feel that last breathe
Warble out of m-
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