not just in the way I saw you
you're farther than venus
my celestial heart
-she's  not even nominal

the thoughts dancing in my brain
fermenting in the pit of my heart
I pick at that heap
-starcrossed & lonesome

love is not just a feeling
it's a perfume we bathed in
we soaked in
-we loved in




but the scent washes away
no longer a distinction
no longer a dizzying coat
-like we never soaked at all.

I am the greatest love maker,
But the worst love show-er,
Didn't know what to show her,
So I showered her with petty symbolisms,

A rose, to display the danger and perfection,
A ring, for her everlasting beauty,
A song, to sing from the heart
A thong, to dance in, to prepare romancing,
Shoes, to walk in with class and elegance,

Still not enough
And so I gave,
A watch, so show time is of the essence,
A car, to take her to any destination,
A house, to make home
With A dog, so she’s never alone

Still it wasn’t enough
And so I gave,
A clone of me
So I’m never really gone,
My arms to embrace,
My legs, to stand,
I even gave
My feet and hands.

She rejected everything,
Down to
My skin to hide the inner workings
My bones for supporting
My nerve
My muscles for strength
My height for length
My width for conception
And my depth for protection

You wanted nothing
From the concrete
To abstract

From the start.

What was missing?
You wanted not a thing,
But
My heart.

I remember all the times we spent together
Now we don’t even see each other

You were my best friend my soul mate and all

Until we tried something new



We decided to give one more step a chance

Thought it was unbreakable and was made to last

You said we will always be friends but yes, you had lied

My head is aching, my hear is breaking, what did we do?



Thanks for making me realize my life is just one big lie

Thanks for teaching me the biggest lesson of all

You taught me that you can’t trust anyone but yourself

You stole my heart and you broke it in two



Thanks for turning your back on me
Thanks for not telling the truth
Thanks for not being real

On my heart you’ve left a scar



Thanks for letting me think you actually cared

And that you would always be there

Who ever said that it’s best to be friends first

When something goes wrong it’s never the same



If only I could turn back time

I miss the touch of your friendship

I long to see that smile, and hear you laugh

I really miss that connection that I felt with you



Can we mend this rift or has it gone too far???

You are
delicious
And I am
greedy.
You are
generous
And I am
needy.
You are
experienced
And I am
learning.
You are
flammable
And I am
burning.