I cannot willingly walk the same broken path that she did
I cannot place my own feet
Into her worn out, ****** shoes
My feet feel to flee so far away.
This path I cannot choose.
For I was shown
That love is not enough
When it comes to them and their religion
Love is not all you need

I cannot destroy my own future
Throw away my happiness
Both of us miserable,
Hiding in the shadows
How can that sound good at all?

I love you,
I do.
And I would like nothing else more than to live a happy, long life with you

But I cannot marry your beliefs
And because of that
I cannot...

Give up and say
So much for 'happily ever after'!

All I want to do right now
Is lay with you
Like we did last night.
My eyes closed, hand on your chest
Holding you as close as you can get
And fall asleep
In your arms.

We gather here today
To mourn the death of a dear loved one
And although there is no body
Or no casket
We say goodbye
To who he used to be.
Hold on to your memories in your hearts, dear folks
For he might not be coming back
For he might
Be lost forever.

His laugh, his smile, his playful demeanor
We'll surely miss
What a good friendship we had
Days we shared.

And although I cannot say
He is in a better place
I just know
This is what he wanted.

I can feel it on the tip of my tongue
As you grab my hand
Or pull me close.
As I kiss you, you hold me;
I can feel your heartbeat.
I can almost say it
Almost whisper it

But I make myself wait
For now is too soon

But I feel it on the tip of my tongue
And I have to catch it when I take a breath
So it doesn't fly out.

"I love you."

And even though she warms me
About the place that you are heading
That you will need me
That something bad will happen if I'm not there for you

Part of me is angry
And wants to see you fall
Wants to prove that
I was right all along
Part of me wants to see you crash
I tried to help, to change for so long
That I finally gave up

And you will finally understand why
You will finally understand me

Even though it is far too late for you to
Come back and change anything
You will know why I did the things I did,
Said the things I said.

And you will know you should have listened
And you will have learned.

But part of me knows
It won't change a thing.

If you listen
Pay attention to the beats
But in between
Where the silence lays,
Right there,
You can feel the sadness.
Like an echo,
Barely there.
but still,
It sits.
And if you do not listen to it
Do not wallow in it sometimes,
It will sit there forever.

Once again an ant crawls in
A crack
In my solid stone foundation.

Which is suddenly reduced to rubble.

For the first time in my life
Your kiss is blank.
An empty tape with no recording
Your touch is a vast field
With nothing but cheat grass.

No flowers,
No flutters,
No feelings like there used to.
For once
I am alone.