I dreamed you a fresh
flowery blue dress
smiling into the sun

your blue eyes of sky
blonde hair full of sunlight
and sin
barefooted on the grass

we were walking (your hand
in mine)
we were smiling (with ever
burning fire)

no destinanion in need (
only your presence
captures the eye of God)
no pockets to hide our
feelings in

forever and yet never
A sleepy lights came through
the window
night crept out through a back door
a pallid day walked in

Do not speak of flowers

burning and burning the rose
petals find a glimpse of world
right before they collapse in ash

Do not speak of your lovers

no matter who they stand opposed
if two or more, your always cold
hands never tremble nor abash

Do not speak of night

fearing each and every day
as the beams bow lower
before her curly silver touch

Do not speak of what is right

killing your spirit slowly prey
on weak minded and lost
people wanting to die too much

Do no speak of love

and her skin being ripped off
soul chained to a heavy stone
idea lost in the motionless spark

Speak do not

only the silence prepares to be
our judge as the winter paints
the icy flowers in a complete dark

And when you ask

is there anything left to talk?
My poor hard heart is dead
as is your idle flaming heart

Hello and now walk away
You've never been here to stay
And never you mind the many times
The word always escaped your lips
And never mind how many times
It was received as a warm rain
Falling on this god's whipped heart
To reincarnate a smell of flowers
Those hours when my ship sailed out of bay
Just to be turned back by the storms
Or even an unusually good weather
Good day stranger and good bye love
For I have dug so deep and wide
That now I can't see the light
And all of you coming round
Cannot see my abyss solitude
Under the ground
Just stare how magnificently it is dark
And hello good bye hi farewell
For in my abyss solitude
Humankind doesn't ring a bell
And if you stay amazed of what you see
don’t you feel darling
it’s only dark as me

Choose your faith

And

Die

Looking at desolation
(that you left here behind
with me in ruins)
and sun that shines
only to be stopped by clouds
(for darkness has deeper
meaning than collapse)
I touched the only pillar
which remained of
the temple (where
each night lied seven
stone roses with blood
in their petals) but
spirit of the place was gone
(with the summer which may
never spread its arms across
the land again) and I was left with
a hammer and pickaxe to
rebuild the temple (with a face
of new goddess) you destroyed
when you gave yourself to him
(but the times is not right now
for my hard hands are feeling
numb) looking at this desolation
I endorse my isolation (but the
time will come and it will be
a new poem for the eyes of love

It’s been over
a while darling
but I still
can’t force
my dreams to
                          stop
making me cry
in the morning
and question...
        (once again)
...question everything

Were we blind then
Or are we now ?

if
  I
  don’t
   care
    about
     the
      sky

Walking from her house
from her boring little talk
of what comes after death
or the scenes of the past

Until the seed is sown
no rose can bloom
Until the love is shown
you'll remain a fool

those who

say that love

fades never

have known her

Turn on the night
for I can hear it coming
through the day
always the lights
keep on deceiving us

Turn on the night
and let there be light
only in your eyes
let all else in the universe
sink in the dark

Turn on the night
and lie on the bed
a little flame under
a spoon full of black
boiling sweet death

Turn on the night
and let the needle
find its way to your
vein, blood, brain
godless heart

Turn on the night
forever in timeless
seconds of the past
let your eyes of the universe
be dyed in the dark

So this is over
you’re out of my life

A paradox indeed

for if you were my world
I wouldn't be alive

Here I am babe
naked on the bed
of dreams waiting

And here you are darling
trembling gently
like a willow in the wind

Outside the moon sweetheart
spies on your pale legs
jealous to take part

So please hurry love
for I’m desperate
for your gentle touch

When you lay your spirit
on mine we start to burn
but please don’t fear it

Just Remember

What they told you back in time:
"You must shine when you burn baby;
Burn and Shine.”

I used to call you Čiči
a name of little girl
from
a monster fairytail

You always smiled
and my heart stopped
for awhile

I lived for those few
seconds of happiness

I used to call you my love
as one of many clichés
in our lives

Because a true love’s
always a big cliché
burning at stake

I lived for those times
when you were mine

Like a cigarette smoke
Love disappeared from her lips
Bitter sun shone upon the tips of trees
He knew all was lost
Upon the lilac petals
Of yellow reality
She won’t return

I die everytime I think of you;
A man that is nothing special.
Not wise, not strong, not clever,
Nothing that I accomplished
Can take you back into my arms.
Only pain remains forever;
Even when life fades
You can still see its cold hands
Masked as death.
But in fact it’s something more and less;
For it’s a hand of dying hope
That weeps the last tears.
I’ll never see you again...

just maybe
it is
in the end
on the nearest road
vanishing amongst the stars
like old men
with an old prayer

just maybe
it is
in the end
on the lost path
gleaming amongst the road rocks
like a vigorous men
who killed themselves

just maybe
it is
in the end
imposible to grasp
madness from God
and his holy suffering
around the gates of dawn

Love is like a ******
Weakness for somebody
Love is the biggest drug
You cannot stop
You don’t see yourself as a wreck
Just give me that dope
Which keeps me alive
Forever
Even after all the years
you’d rather die than reconcile
that there won’t be another dose
that there won’t be another moment with her

Late night
Smoke’s rising from ***** ashtray
which you gave me once

I can’t sleep
Can’t bring myself to put away teddy bear
symbol of your love

It’s dark outside
You’re in another city with another man
Photo on my desk is here to remind

I’ve been with another women
cheated more than once
hurt you almost dozen times

You’re with someone who never
means to bring you harm
Clean, loving and faithful

First, I wanted this poem
to show you that love is always enough
but now I’m not sure

For I know what I’ve done
I know how unforgivable it is
and yet you still love me

Too late have I woken up
too long I’ve been ruining your life
too much you’ve suffered

I don’t dare to say I love you anymore
my heart is torn to pieces
my head aches, life wants to go

I know what I need to do
what is right for you
and lethal for me

But it’s so hard to write or say
or even think, so please
bear with me, bear with me

No words can tell how much
I’m sorry or how much
I want everything to be right

I’d do anything to chain you to me
anything to win your love
but that's not the problem, right?

The past has hunt you
the past has hunt me
the past has ruined our future

The past is me and my wicked deeds
forever written in you
and to rewrite them love’s not enough

I can’t ask you to give me another chance
I didn’t deserve a single one before
I don't deserve you

I must set you free of my being
I must leave and let you forget
for my crimes love’s not enough

Please don’t think I don’t love you
for it would be the biggest lie
I think about you all the time

I have no future without you
But darling I must let you go
you deserve happiness more than love

And to think that he gives you both
makes me want to **** myself
O, how much I was wrong

I have nothing to say to my defense
I can’t change what was done
But I love you with all my heart

Now I see what I need to do
now I’d do anything you want me to
Now I know you were the one

But for the past unchanging
for the pain I caused there is no cure
when love’s not enough

So please go now and never turn back
for you may oversee me dead or dying
and I don’t want you to think it’s because of you

Or please stay with me
and you’ll never hurt again
for I am changed

I know it came too late
hurt too much
and you’re afraid of the past

But I know I love you
and I know I need you
I know I could make much more than love

I could make you smile
I could make you happy
I could make love true again

I doesn’t matter if you love somebody else
or that you date some other guy
for I’ll always be yours

So now go or stay
but please don’t forget
that I hurt you but I also loved

Everything you did
and I will always remember
the children we planned to have

I love you, I love you, I love you
I love you, I love you, I love you
But then again, it’s not enough

Late night
you left, ashtray is broken into pieces
everything burns, everything’s lifeless
everything’s ash

I dreamed you were a cool rocky lake
in the middle of dry colourless forest.
I came thirsty to your white pale shores
and you dived into me when I was lowest.

A heart blinds itself by emotions
binding my love in out of time.
Everytime I’m with you I’m glad
for in your darkness I can let my spirit shine.

I waited the first day
for the signs on the sky
cleared by the evening stardust

I waited the second day
for your face to show
in the oceans of gold

I waited the third day
for the touch of your hand
warmer than sunlight

I waited the fourth day
near the lake of solitude
where mockingbirds sang me tunes

I waited the fifth day
desparete for your presence
so esencial to my being

On the sixth day
I build a fire that touched
the stars for you to see

When the seventh day came
I was forever gone
for you would never come

If your love is locked inside you
and no one else can relate
I tell you brother, just selfmedicate

If you feel alone with shields
up so no one can penetrate
I tell you brother, just selfmedicate

Whenever they tell you that it’s wrong
and every route once taken you can retake
I tell you brother, don’t listen, just selfmedicate

The trees coloured purple with dancing birds
voices of people made to degenerate
I tell you brother, just selfmedicate

when you killed and scared your soul
with no chance to regenerate
I tell you brother, just selfmedicate

And if you did wrongs to world
without a chance to compensate
I tell you brother, just selfmedicate

What is left
of fallen springs
(and fallen love)
bleeding (as only
springs can bleed)
into everhungry
mouth of earth

What is left
of skinny religions
crucifing for
redemption ( for
some kind of sin
we’ve made)of
eternal soul (but we
can’t remember)

What is left
of those trees (
where we've made love
once) near the river
and the sun that shone
for our smiles
(or maybe only yours)

What is left
of these memories(
only pain) bringing
on their wings (pain)
a hope for another day
(always pain)

I'm strong and faithful like a flame
(But you keep that part
And I only wear my other half)
Won’t you just leave me be darling
Won’t you just walk away from my dreams
or stop being in my head more
than (and always stronger)
a though of suicide?
You say you hate me and this place
(like I could do something with
the dead silence around you)
more than sleeping on
thousand deadly snakes
(as if your world now was
just a walk in a park)
Once you told me you want to be happy
and yet (falling like the first
drops of starting rain)
when I offered you happiness
you said you loved the pain
what was I supposed to do
(being only a blind man
begging for love)
than to leave you
and never coming back again?

Every time I kiss you
Our
Souls collide with eternity

What a tender soul
(or heart of fire)
can write about love
(such gentle force
to make eternity last longer)
what miracles in
a form of life can be
found written on her
(by the holy flame)

It’s like when bird
lovely sings
(or other cries in his song)
making Earth’s burden
a little less heavy
(a little more natural)

Poets are like birds
and lessening burden
like a love of man
(both beyond the time)

This is my last goodbye
I know it took me forever to change
and through that time I hurt you so many times
This is my last goodbye
even so my love has never been stronger before
and it took me forever to realise
This is my last goodbye
Upon your fair lips I pressed mine in hope
that maybe you remember what it means to love
This is my last goodbye
For you forgot, lost or grew hostile to our love
lying and splitting us apart
This is my last goodbye
I suffered what I had to suffer
and loved truly for you were meant to be loved
This is my last goodbye
for I know you can never say farewell to him
for you like too much to be adored
This is my last goodbye
tears will dry sooner or later
I pray that someday you’ll find out how to love again
This is my last goodbye
to all the pain and all the lies
please remember that forever you’ll be loved

Love is with a blowing wind
Always here but heading
For some other place

Love is with the roaring waves
Giving and taking life
For their pleasure

Love is with the burning flame
At times shining warm
Yet still consuming

Love is with the vicious storms
Spreading their bony fingers
With deadly touch across the world

Love is in the morning skies
Coloured like my lovers eyes
But the clouds have come to rest upon them

Love is like a howling wind
Speeding through us
To some other place

Eternity cried
(Falling leaves are angels
From the skies dead
Old as all the spring and
Summer days)
This love is not to be
(Nor is the other one
Even when it's beginning
Sickness dwells in her soul
Doomed and ******)
Happiness isn't coming
(Just as God never existed
And still never was absent
In the heart of land
Raising poor souls)
You gave me pain
(Making me to live
In the past
the cold bed so shallow
Shorter of your shadow)
You offered a choice
(You asked the deaf to sing
A song of love
And told him to
To do it in silence)
You remain with him
(And as our love is ashes
He may give you
A new hope
The Smallest of sparks)
Hold him as once you hold me
(And keep the fire on babe
Without your feelings
Of anger, betrayal and injustice
Don't keep your love scared)
Say farewell
(Like thousand times before
You and I said hello
But this is different
Our last goodbye)
We don't talk anymore
(Walking the earth
Feeling the presence [the love] of
Each other without seeing
Both of us rooting in time)
And maybe we are free
(Maybe still not able
To rattle to unlock the chains
We have on each other
Praying for love to die)
Please don't follow me
(For I could lift you
And take everywhere in my arms
For I could kiss you
And leave the pain behind)

Could you be the god's lonesome traveler? 
Or just a spark of light in worlds eyes
When you pass the cities that don't want you
You always pray (for the sake of their lives)

She was pure and infinite in her doubts
with pale hands around your head
she was fair and beautiful memory
in the mists of graves (and the dead)

If you walk, she’ll walk with you
and if you lie, she’ll be gone
if you betray, she’ll be crying
her heart was given (never won)

The death has hands upon your sinful face
The death knows where you came from
The death tolls the time of rest
for you lonesome traveler (and your roam)

She’ll hunt you down to amber grave
with flowers never to be born
She’ll kiss your lips with lips of night
and take your heart (with hands cold as a stone)

Be gone now for no god is ever to be greeted here
in the land of misery and people with hard beds
Be gone now for there is no preaching for us
for no God ever ruled this land (only death)

As the spring blew the winter’s touch away
and the country showed no signs of life,
from the ashes of those who had fallen
grew a bed of dandelions in a single night.

Crows were sitting on the line
looking down on crucified.
One smoked a long cigarette
the other had the smiling pipe;
rings were floating up and high
above those down crucified.
Sun was shining red and low
underneath flew Holy dove
as a God’s gift to the crucified.
Blood from wounds came dark and hot
the crows were in fact a hungry lot
praying upon the crucified.
And when the hour came and died
crows were there and clawed their eyes.

Why don’t you just **** me with those big dreams of yours,
why don’t you just put an end to the suffering of my fading soul?
And yet you’re still here, smiling with a lover’s smile,
wanting more and more ‘till you got just enough to survive the next day.
Forever in my head you dwell and sing the poisoned song of love
hoping that maybe someday, slowly I’ll marry you
and there and then I’ll change into the circus lion
great and majestic, yet powerless and weak
but most of all alone in darkness
with the relics of my soul dying like neon lights in the night
Being with you was trying to breathe by suffocating myself,
yet the short time with you was as bright as sun
and I adored you ‘till I died.

You see I’m broken, he used to say
My life gives no meaning to the time spent
What is there to live for?
I came to him and kissed him
But my love was never enough
For he despised something so low
In his search for greater reasons
And I lived for him in his darkest hours
tryed to tell him things like honor don’t matter
that I am here for him and that’s all that there is.
But he knew one day he’d be gone
And yet still thinking about our love
He would search determined to find
anything to prove me wrong
So he could justify his fear of being forever
in one place, with one person
experiencing the same fate
for in his love he couldn’t settle down
burning with fire impossible to extinguish
and what is left of him still writes this poem
while I’m recovering ready to give my heart
to someone that matters as once he did.

Two shadows were taken from the sky
to dance in circus being robbed of wings to fly

In the country of roses and waterfalls
which shape the silent rocks of old

They felt displaced, motionless
and people thought them cold

If only they could get their wings back
and left this place of misunderstanding

Only together they could be happy
In the sky among the stars forever flying

And maybe this song doesn’t make sense
and maybe I’m losing my mind

But you need to know that we’re those stars
we are flame and eternity, we are of one kind

"I can’t” she said
and he ceased to live

Alone on the mountain
never fighting the howling wind

Alone on the mountain
she’d asked him to be alive

“I can’t” he said
and she only braced her pride

“You’ll take me with you” she begged
but it never mattered for he was dead

And he looked at her
but she couldn’t match his eye

Out of suffering she cried
“If you long for it then go and die”

Alone on the mountain
snow flew around his soul

Alone on the mountain
there’s no living without her anymore

He said “I say unto thee
I beg you to stay with me”

Alone on the mountain
the death gave him first kiss

Alone on the mountain
he got first sign of relief

“I can’t” she said
and he ceased to live

“What life is it
when there’s no love in it”

“What life is it
when you left me on the mountain
saying: “Please wait for me”
and coming back when you see fit”

And me already dead
but yet still standing there
alone on the mountain
I won’t fight the howling wind
I’ll let the snow to warm my soul
I’ll return the deaths calling kiss"

Who am I 
Who is this life everybody talks about 
A stranger passing through 
Strange land
Cleansing rain
Winter cold bites the flash
A monk sitting naked on the snow
The first man and the last 
Ash and dust
Ash and dust 
Building a cottage with blooded hands
On the hill that nobody climbs 
The sky touches his head
The sun guides his heart
He looks into the world
And it is silent
Who is he
And who is this life you're taking about
A stranger passing through strange land

Tearing my worlds apart 
Was forever your speciality
Kissing my wounds
Then biting a piece of heart

Now in these land of mine
Only rocks grow from poisonous
Ground with soil of flame
Everything that once was died

I come around your store
Every morning in cold silence
But you're all sold out
With sign closed on the door

And everywhere is wrong place
For kissing you with lips of darkness
Always prepared to leave
For you if only not for time and space 

Walking in the city lights
Miles away from eyes that once loved
Waking in the empty bed blinded
By night, loosing all my fights

I found myself alone cold
In the stillness of the dead
And the dead said to me
Your life's already old

You're long gone with all clothes packed
Cigarettes not as heavy as they should
Hands shaking with deadly colour of blue 
Looking down from 10 storeyed flat

And what is there to keep me from the jump
What is there to keep me in this life
What is there that could have me loved
Only death only silence only finishing this song

There once was a house in the woods
with coloured birds sining on its porch.
There was a house on the soil full of stones
and noone to hear their song.

I found it one autumn afternoon;
Walking on the leaves graves
I knocked on the door when song
vanished and silence remained.

Wooden walls of every room
brought the sadness to my soul.
I felt your presence in the air
though in my mind laid a hole.

Maybe it was in another life;
was I too late or too soon?
Only thing that remained true:
I was alone without you.

I left you a note on the kitchen table
with few rhymes that you might like
for if you ever come back here again
you’ll find you and me alike.

Walking alone from that place
with no destination in sight
I remember the house on the soil full of stones
and moon falling in the night.

In the morning the birds cut out the heart of silence
singing in the quiet sunbeams all day long
while on the kitchen table laid my lines saying:
within my heart you’re my only song.

On an island
in the middle of desert nowhere
nothing but your hand
can reach me

Trees here
they never bloom with leaves
dead as love
that once was new

Endless rivers
veins of purple blood lead
to me but I’m broken
broken heart

For the boy
I was beating in and
the girl I was beating for
split apart

Clouds over
bring the saddest song
of dancing rain
of heavenly light

Thousand miles
to every sides 
there’s only sand and ash
and dust

Yesterday
and all the days before
couldn’t prepare me
for what is now

Silently
I watched him cry
O I would heal myself
but I don’t know how

Thousand miles
to every side
there’s only me dying
and no signs of life

Tomorrow
and all the days after
seem empty and grey
without her love