I feel that
I can tell you
Anything and
Everything

I've been teared apart, destroyed, hurt, and broken
The constant hell I've been living in is (has been) home
And it's sad to realize it's comfortable to be so numb

Look me in the face
Tell me you don't love me
That you don't care anymore
That I mean nothing to you
That you want your stuff back
That you don't want my stuff anymore
Don't give me those little glances in class, or in the hallway, or in the cafeteria
Look into my eyes
And tell me

But mostly, I hate the way I don't hate you. Not even close. Not even a little bit. Not even at all.

In a dark room in cold sheets
I can't feel a **** thing
I lost myself
Between your legs
Your medicine is in my head
You know I'd rather be alone
But then you call me on the phone

Oh the habits of my heart
I can't say no
It's ripping me apart
You get too close
You make it hard to let you go

I tell myself, I like that
When you tie my hands behind my back
You're confident I'll give you that
But if you love yourself, you can **** yourself
'Cause I'd rather be alone
But you're fragmented in my bones

Oh the habits of my heart

I was happy,
Weird feeling
After all this
Time passed
I can still
Feel the side
Effects but
They fade
Rather quick

Take a look at what you see
Let me know if this right here
Is something you can have for years
*Tell me what you want from me

Hollow and heartless
Just like you left me

The number of a day full of firsts
And the number of a day full of lasts

From "I wish I had met you sooner" to "I wish I had never seen you at all"

Everybody knows that
A broken heart is blind

Depression and anxiety is a flaw in chemistry
**Not in character

My thoughts poison my body
and I'm giving in
I've lived enough

I miss holding you
And you holding me back

I miss my best friend

I was with you through your worst and best
You saw a little of the bad and ran away

How lucky are you to have two hearts in your possession
Yours and Mine
While my chest is hollow and echoes every step I take
Reminding me of the horrendous thoughts I have
I couldn't say "it's your loss, you lost someone who loves you and cares for you unconditionally"
While I am left with broken pieces of myself I don't even recognize
I know what I lost exactly and I'll always want it back
It feels more like a curse than a blessing to have a caring heart full of love
And a mind set on undying hope for the impossible

He changed his mind more than a girl changes clothes

Being with you was a dream
Still is
You hurt me but regardless I always forgive you
I could've lost you long before I even met you
And thank whoever is in charge of the universe
Because no one has ever made me as happy as you do
Please please don't go
You and I both don't want to know what would happen
If you left first
I know it's hard
I know it hurts
We both want to die but for different reasons
Just lean on me

I miss kissing you whenever I wanted

You're the one that walked away
From someone who still loves you
Unconditionally and would do
Anything to see you smile
Someone that cares so much more
For you than they do for themselves
Who wants you happy
Who wants to know how your days been
You're the one that made the mistake
So I guess you were right
**You didn't and don't deserve me

It seems as if my absence didn't do anything to you, but your absence in my life made insanity, anxiety, and depression even more present.
I used to silence your demons but it seems you passed them off to me.

Hell is loving you in my sleep and waking up alone

Someone once said that the moment you stop to think about whether you love someone, you've already stopped loving that person forever.

I suppose it won't matter when I'm 38, but I'm upset about it [right now].

We exchange empty stares
Full of feelings still felt
By both of us, but kept
Hid deep inside thinking
It'll make the pain go away

I loved you yesterday
I loved you a year ago
I loved you today
I love you tomorrow
I love you forever

You're killing me but you're why I'm trying to stay alive

No mix of the 26 letters in the alphabet could ever
Fathom how much I love you
How much I miss you (all the time)
How much you mean to me
How much you matter
How much I'm proud of you
Just please don't go
*PLEASE DON'T GO

That is the saddest part when you lose someone you love- that person keeps changing. And later you wonder, is this the same person i lost?

How are you supposed to fall out of love

"I make no apologies for how I chose to repair what you broke"

I feel like I'm supposed to know how to handle myself but I don't

And those little smirks you do still gets me
But not as hard and I guess that's a start

"I'll never leave you"
"I'll always love you"
"I don't want to hurt you"
But you did leave
And you don't love me
And it always hurts,
Everything you do hurts

I like you*
It's as simple and as complicated as that

You told me you'd love me until the end.
Which begs the question, are we now dead?

The person I want to talk to the most barely even looks me in the eye anymore

i find it kind of funny
i find it kind of sad
the dreams in which i'm dying
are the best i've ever had

It is better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all

I just want to know *why

Even forever wouldn't suffice as enough time with you

You were in love with the idea of being with me
Not the reality of me

I don't know how much more I can take

"I feel like I'm in the wrong world. I don't belong in a world where we don't end up together, I don't."

I can't sleep in my room anymore
I feel like I suffocate in there
You're poison
You're toxic
You're everywhere I look
Get out
You said we'd be friends
But that's obviously not the case
I can't be sad anymore
This is just making me angry
I'd die for you, still
I'd live for you, still
I miss you, still
I love you, *still

maybe you're my heaven
maybe i'm your hell
maybe we're both stuck in between

Improve your reality
Or lower your expectations